Of Saying Goodbye

i'm not sure of what to say to you at this point
i wanted so bad to forgive you
to believe that you were just broken
i hoped that one day i could take your hand
and hear your voice say that it would be okay
i guess i was just holding on to a stupid dream
but you were everything to me

it took a single call to realize that you were empty and selfish
i wanted to scream in your face
but my words were silenced by disbelief
choked with so much resentment and sorrow

why are you like this?
why can't you be the woman i needed you to be?
i needed you to be strong, but you always chose poison over me

we were just kids, trying to hold it together
"keep the door locked. be home before dark."
not to keep us safe, but to hide from your mistakes

mistakes that you made over and over again
mistakes that almost left you lifeless on a hospital bed

yet you still do it again
you were given a second chance at life
to do things right but you go back to your habits
now i walk on my own
taking one step at a time around your footprints
your blood runs through me and i want to tear it out
i know that you are a part of me
but it fills me with nothing but shame
all i feel towards you is hate

you are not sick. you are the disease

i won't hold my breath, waiting for this nightmare to end
i can't keep feeling this heartache for you
i've accepted a life, without saying goodbye
i've cried enough for you

goodbye forever. we won't meet again



Credits
Writer(s): Adam Johnson, Ryan Miller, Linzey Rae, Cory Jones
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