Suicide Note

To the ones that I love dearly
I know that you won't miss me
I hope you can forgive me
Cause I cannot forgive me

I've been a terrible father
A terrible husband
I failed my daughter I failed my family
An alcoholic a drug addict
I lost sight of what's important
So I gave into the drugs
And I sold em
In the process of this hurting
Guess my soul was being stolen
It's the moment that I noticed
That I was truly broken
My pride kept me in motion
So I pushed all the ones
Who loved me to the curb and
Remembering the days that I killed somebody
Though I got away with it
But not my conscious
I pinned me everyday I felt so ashamed
Didn't sleep for like four days

Who am i why did I do it?
Am I human? I got no feelings
I some need healing
Why did I do it? Am I human? I got no feelings
I some need healing

To the ones that I love dearly
I know that you won't miss me
I hope you can forgive me
Cause I cannot forgive me
Yea to the ones that I love dearly
I know that you won't miss me
And I hope you can forgive me
Cause I cannot forgive me

As I was writing this suicide note
Someone started knocking
At my door
Hid all the pills I had on the table
Hid all these notes inside of drawer
Went to open the door
To my surprise it was my daughter
She came alone
I ain't seen her since I came out
Prison
She said I came to see how you
Are doing
I'm sorry that it took this long
I was mad at you for not being
There when I was young
I gave her a hug I said it was fine
We both cried
I started thinking like damn
I was so close to tearing her apart again
Maybe it's God showing me
That He forgives my sins
My beautiful girl never
Never Thought that I'd you again
I Never thought I'd see you again
She asked me why are your eyes
so red were you crying
I told her everything is fine now
Don't worry about it
Truth Is if you didn't show up
You'd find me dead
And hear my last thoughts
On a piece of paper instead
She held me tight and said let me see it
I pointed at the drawer
She ran opened it saw the pills and note and
Screamed what were you thinking
Ripped the paper in half
Threw the pills with it in the trash
And she shook her head
Don't ever think about Suicide
Just cause your life is hard
Doesn't mean you have to die

To the ones that I love dearly
I know that you won't miss me
And I hope you can forgive me
Cause I cannot forgive me
Yea To the ones that I love dearly
I know that you won't miss me
And I hope you can forgive me
Cause I cannot forgive me

She looked at my face and she said
I ain't wanna wait for
You to die for me to miss you
The truth is that I miss you
Something told me to come
Here and see you
And Life's is too short for me to hate
You
I really wanna get to know you
Let's forget the past
Issues and start over
Then I told her let's go
Get some to eat then some ice cream
She laughed and cracked
A joke Like what am I thirteen?
I said no matter how big
How small you still
My little baby to me
And Thank you for the opportunity
Especially for forgiving me
I promise you I'll be the best
Dad you ever had
To replace all the bad memories
That you made sad
And Not a day goes by
And I put that on my life
That I regret no being there for you
Seeing you learn to walk
For the first time
Talk for the first time
Hearing you call me daddy for
The first time
Taking you to school
Staying up late helping you
With you your homework
Talking about what bothered you
Share my childhood experiences
With you
I hated my father and ended
Being like him
She held my hand and she said
You have a choice not end
Up like him damn

To the ones that I love dearly
I know that you won't miss me
And I hope you can forgive me
Cause I cannot forgive me
To the ones that I love dearly
I know that you won't miss me
And I hope you can forgive me
Cause I cannot forgive me