Damned Experiment

When I was young
They gave me things I couldn't check out for shit
I'd like to spit it all out by now
For there's no fucking way to fit
The world I'm pushed in.
My view's upset
They just wanna see me bent
A torture chamber's a fucking place where all my youth's been spent

Some need children, some need slaves
But nobody gives a fuck about children's pains

Pains! Pains! Pains

I know for sure
They wanted a calm multifunctional robotic creature at hand
To call, to send, to construct and spend, to keep at bay, to command
They thought knocking me down was enough
To show me all of their love
And all such stuff
It took ten years for anything to make me laugh

Some need children, some need slaves
But nobody gives a fuck about children's pains

Endless nightmare
I'm the subject of their

Damned experiment
The bottom line is malice
Damned experiment
I'm scared like little Alice
Damned experiment
Girls turn into wrecked toys
Damned experiment
Boys turn to broken boys

Stop! Please stop

Somebody, please
Explain to me: is it a nature's prenatal joke
Or something else
All I know: my body's a damned fucking yoke
No matter why no matter how but it's here and eats me alive
An unstoppable pain for days, for months, for years, for a whole life

They fuck my brains
And pretend they're the most loving parents, but yet they pervert
My every word, my every breath, they leave me nothing but death
Lost my health, fell downstairs,
Hung myself, cut my veins
They don't give a fuck! Why the hell
But give me a thousand wrong names

Some need people, some need shit
The damned motherfuckers don't care what they did

Endless nightmare
I'm the subject of their

Damned experiment
The bottom line is malice
Damned experiment
I'm scared like little Alice
Damned experiment
Boys never turn to girls
Damned experiment
Girls never turn to boys

While the other ones were growing
Like happy flowers in the sun
I was scratching, I was clawing
Cuz I'm condemned to be alone

Hold!
What have I got to hold on to
Dad!
You're not a dad – I don't want you
Birth!
Don't understand what I'm born for
Mom!
You turned your back on me – I'm living no more
Doubt!
I don't believe their pretension
Pain!
Who'll stop this pains penetration
Hope!
Hope someone comes here to stop it
Please!
I'm in the torture room: someone unlock it

Endless nightmare
I'm the subject of their

Damned experiment
The bottom line is malice
Damned experiment
I'm scared like little Alice
Damned experiment
Some will lose and perish
Damned experiment
Others will fight and live

Yeah

Damned experiment
Burned down my psychic
Damned experiment
I'd like to die cuz I'm sick
Damned experiment
Scared like little Alice
Damned experiment
I'm scarred with hate and malice

Damned experiment
I'm a scarred girl
Damned experiment
I'm an abandoned girl
Damned experiment
God, help your daughter
Damned experiment
God, save your daughter

God, save your daughter
God! Save! Your! Daughter
God! Save! Your! Daughter
God! Save! Your! Daughter
God