Casualty of Love

Remember when we told each other we would always be together
Even if we decided to give our hearts to someone on the outside
The bond that we forged on the inside was supposed to keep us entwined
But you cut ties and burned bridges
You set our friendship on fire while I was still in it
You left me screaming for your love
Banging on the walls of your soul as you watched from the other side – unfazed
So, I had to save myself
'Cause if I'd waited on your help
I surely would have died
I think I did die on the inside
I met death face to face
My tears fell for 40 days
I drowned in my sorrows
I couldn't recognize tomorrow
I wept as I slept
And my pillows are still wet
My pillows are still stained with mascara that I wore for you on our last date
The very last day that your face graced my space
Before you snatched your love away like a thief in the night
I went to sleep in love and woke up with your knife in my back
Now I'm cracked open and weeping
My heart – barely beating
You could've at least looked me in my eyes as you killed me
Now here we are months later and I'm the one feeling guilty
I'm the one feeling stressed 'cause you're pressed to be friends
And you want to make amends
For leaving me alone to rewrite how we'd end
But I don't want to let you in
So you can hurt me again
I know I promised I'd stay and I mean everything I say
But you threw our vows away when you chose to walk away
And yet, those words still linger in my mind
Like goosebumps left behind as your fingers traced my spine
But that's all in the past
We knew our love wouldn't last
We fell too hard and too fast
So we were destined to crash
I just didn't know that I'd crash all on my own
While you ran from the damage
Leaving me to heal all alone