Listen

When it's my time to go just let it be so
There was nothing else probably going for me
It's thoughts like this that just won't let me sleep
It's too late when I feel the anxiety start to creep
I'm already shaking, confidence breaking
It's my own life I could see myself taking
Am I not okay? Is there something wrong?
I've been feeling like this for way too long
Believe me when I'm saying that I'm trying really hard
I'm walking back and fourth pacing down the boulevard
Nervous anxious shaking chilling every single bone
I want no one near me leave me the fuck alone
You run and try to help me, but you're a little bit too late
If you ran a little faster you could've changed my fate
Hands in cuffs while blood is dripping down my wrist
Disregarding thoughts when I'm gone would I be missed

This is not a dumb joke listen to this
This is not a dumb joke listen to this
This is not a dumb joke listen to this
This is not a dumb joke
Listen!

This is not a dumb joke listen to this young folk
Believe me I know everyone's been through some shit
But when was the last time you had a good day?
When was the last time someone asked if you're okay?
Not many have friends like those
Could it be the decisions I chose?
Nobody knows
But I'm only setting out on having better days
I'm only setting out on making better days
So take a deep breath, exhale real slow
I don't act of impulse when I'm feeling really low
Cause most of the things I've done I regret
But it doesn't matter now cause time won't reset
So I live in the moment, I enjoy it while I can
I'm still working on becoming a better man
Cause at the moment that's all I can do
Why is it like this?
I wish I fucking knew

This is not a dumb joke listen to this
This is not a dumb joke listen to this young folk
This is not a dumb joke listen to this young folk
This is not a dumb joke
Listen

This is not a dumb joke
Listen to this young folk
When he has to speak
Get off of your seat
Cause I always have got shit to say
And if you don't like it, it doesn't matter anyway
Cause I'm gonna speak my mind, until peace I will find
But now it's just constant decline
But you know...
My goal is up the ladder, I just have to start to climb
A little bit higher than I had expected
23 my life is still fuckin hectic
Am I okay? Am I feeling better?
I don't know my mood changes quicker than the weather
I was almost gone, just by a fraction
Now I'm using music like a distraction
Just cover it up like a heavy curtain
Just cause I only know that death is certain

This is not a dumb joke listen to this young folk
This is not a dumb joke listen to this young folk
This is not a dumb joke listen to this young folk
This is not a dumb joke listen

Yeah I'm 23 yet I'm feeling like 80
Growing pains the stress got me crazy
I'm steaming with worry my reflection is blurry
I fogged up my mirror I need to see clearer
My reflection is covered in tears, what I need reflect is how to handle my fears
Trust is a problem I never knew how
I needed your words and you ruined your vows
Just keeping to myself is all I do now
There's nobody else I wanna make proud
Believing in myself without a fucking doubt
Listen!
They say you grow from anguish, a universal language
I learned to be fluent and gained the moral compass
I'm lawless and grounded by my moral justice
I'm my own religion in god I never trust it
A person with no ethics, is a government that's corrupted
And I'm just trying to come up with a way
To build a peace of mind and smile every day
This is just a piece of mind use what you afraid
You living with worry make that effort for your sake
You're living with anxiety cause you don't know what pursue
Not knowing your capacity, no effort or will to do
Afraid of disappointment of what you can actually do
But it's ok to be disappointed to understand what's true
Every struggles is a lesson you dont get to pick and choose
And with every lesson is a clue of what you must do
A lesson is a revolution that's happening inside of you
I said every lesson is a revolution that's happening inside of you.