Redeye

I took a day
I took a redeye to New York to get away
I tried to rest up on the plane
But couldn't quite shut down my brain, but felt okay

I took a train
To my hotel on 39th to dodge the rain
I wondered when I'd finally see you
But you wouldn't take my call, so self-contained

Feel the static, breathe it in and let it go
Please don't call yourself a quitter, you tried hard to feel at home
It's okay, it's okay, your old bedroom's still the same
Just come home, just come home and take it slow

I walked down 10th
So I could see my old apartment, look inside
But all the decorations changed
I felt adrift, I had a past-tense state of mind

It's me that left
I don't know why I always feel like blaming you
I'm doing fine, I'm doing fine
It's just that I'm not doing quite as fine as you

I felt it coming
I saw the boulder rolling down
But still I thought that I could stay
But at 3 a.m. at the Cortlandt Station
I told my dad, I know I'm not okay
I know I'm not okay
How do I learn to be okay?

And then, a crowded party
Smiling faces, almost friends
I'm almost better
But all dreams end