Anhedonia

I never thought the time would come to undergo
The death of everything we used to know and love,
It's time to understand that is not in my hands
To keep alive some things that are finally dead.

I lost my interest in almost everything
Because nothing is like we used to hear and see,
I lost my will to fight but I don't want to die,
It's a tightrope between composure and collapse.

I never thought the time would come to swallow down
That everything would change and things would be like that,
It's time to understand that is not my mistake
To let die all these things they said they really cared,

I lost my interest in almost everything
Because no one is there and nothing can fill me,
I lost my will to live but I won't kill myself;
I won't start a worse life or go to a worse place.

I disintegrate in anhedonia, I lost myself again,
I want to escape, even most important things lost their grace,
I don't wanna embrace the abyss, I'm tired of nothingness.
I'm about to fade into oblivion, all light goes away.