Life Is Still a Trip

My brightest inspirations come from all the darkest moments
Kinda ironic, how I hope to be the hope for hopeless
People in this world like me, yet they never notice
Cause I'm fronting as if I'm alright but in time they'll know it's bogus
They'll question if he wrote it, while his mental state's eroded
Take it as "relatable" to Instagram just quote it
Like #same, laugh out loud, and post it
Feelings we both feel, but I'm the one exposing
I can't knock it, I'm just telling you you ain't alone
So I can't blame you when you hear these tracks and sing along
That's what I do it for right? The thing that keeps me going
Although I feel insecure spilling this for them to know it
I think that people forget the human behind the art
It cost a lot give you all my thoughts, and all my heart
Cause I don't tell nobody how I feel when shit get dark
And bottled up emotions in time will harshly tear you apart
I know the feeling of asking "when did all this shit start?
And is there ever an end?" I gaze and ask the stars
Just when things look up, the rain ain't ever far
And then we do it all over again, don't be alarmed
Don't be alarmed
Don't be alarmed
Don't be alarmed
And then we do it all over again, don't be alarmed

It's been 20 years too long of doing nothing but stalling
I can't maintain myself cause every time I'm up I keep falling
And I just let myself get taken, drown in tears I been balling
But I been paying attention to all the signs that keep calling
Three 5's on the clock, getting ready for change
My intuition been telling me shit won't ever be the same
I really can't complain, ain't that I wanted?
For sunny days, vaca's, away from all of the toxic
Energy I feel around me, I feel haunted and boxed in
I often feel like I'm the problem, filling my head with toxins
Unhelpful thoughts and all these substances just dance and they frolic
Inside my head, convincing me that I should load one and pop it
And I'm stupid self-aware, I start comparing myself
To other people whom I know do not compare to myself
And I think so fucking much that I start scaring myself
I think my life is going nowhere, I don't care for myself uh
I wear so many hats and different masks for each occasion
I'm always racing time myself and tryna teach them patience
Am I hypocrite, or just a work in progress too?
I just wanna give advice, they say that I'm honest dude
And while it's true, there's a lot of healing that I gotta do
Still don't love myself as much as those who say "I'm proud of you"
It's hard to say that too when you don't really got no pride in you
Accomplishments, acknowledgements, don't bring no ego outta you
So, what's gon make you happy? What's gon get you out?
If you just stay inside that hole, then what's your life about?
Cause you can get the fuck up out that bitch or you can cry and shout
Every time life gets a little difficult, just write it out
Or ride it out, your time just might be now, you'll never find that out
If you don't try imagining the light when all the lights is out
Manifest it, you behold the power till your time is out
Trust me dawg, it won't be long before you're finally climbing out

Man this life is such a trip yet I don't know where to go
So I refrain from getting high when I got problems below
Cause any day could be my day I still got ages to grow
No matter how much I complain, I still maintain, don't you know?
I got the world on my shoulders, I wanna break but I don't
I just gotta keep my balance, gotta stay on my toes
I recognize there's two sides, it's the light and the hole
And I experience it all, it's just a cycle of both
It's a crazy life I'm living with these thoughts in my head
See I'm 20 years young I thought by now I'd be dead
But I weathered through the storm to see the sunlight instead
Yeah I guess I just forget that it's alright in the end
Cause the pain don't last forever, keep your head up my friend
You don't have to wear the mask, you don't have to pretend
There ain't no rules you gotta follow, only rules you can bend
You can always learn to fly in case you're pushed to the edge, I'm gone