Black Bubbles

Stop faking it
You know what Im talking about
You know where this goes out
That thing called anxiety
That thing you fake to get the clout
But thats not all
You probs gonna question
I finally make a call
That other thingo called depression
Oh yeah thats well and good
You can't get ahold of drugs
So you get creative and make homemade shit
Breathing in Nitro from a race cars' hood
Trying to be lit, by acting so edgy
That shit is lame
Imma be aggressive for once
You havent experienced the pain

24 hours in Singapore, my body felt poor
Lets take it 2 years back, I was lying on the floor
3 days more without any sleep, theres plenty more
10pm I could feel it kicking in, 12 I started shaking
Is this what your faking
At 2am, i could see the pain, I could literally visualise it
Climbing up the walls and shit, black bubbles driving me insane
Hotel skyscraper, city lights giving me a migraine
Now and then i'd start to shake, in the pit of my stomach,
I wanted to put a bullet in my brain
Had a shower at 3, and then went back to hell
2 more hours of that shit, and my eyelids fell
You could never tell

While you were smoking trees
I could barely breathe
There was no smoke
Just my mind and me
Its sad to say that it was all in my head
I honestly wanted to eat lead, Im cross-bred
2 months later every wednesday
I had to see a shrink
60 minutes for one term, it pushed me to the brink
I would lie there on this green couch
Explaining shit that made me sound like a grouch
There was stuff in my throat, but there wasn't really
It was triggered when I eat, to much panic, so much heat
Fathers day night was ruined thanks to me
Thanks to me with the stupid shit that held me back
The shit that stopped me sleep
The shit that slowed my peak
Like glen said its just a phase, i powered through it
I felt so weak, but now I'm strong so screw it
Im one of the few to do it, as in do I mean not use Anxiety as an excuse
Im going deeper than I ever have before
All you kids act like you've knocked at deaths door
You got a roof over your head, you privileged, and you get fed
Your fully functioning but your acting like your brain dead

I been through it
I been at it
Bitch I've felt it
Ive done dealt with it
A year and a half
Man it was hard
So many limits
I feel like Im scarred
All of you fakers
Now I'm a wildcard
Man Ive got balls of steel
Feelings on a fishing reel
Hurting like it was unreal
It was like I talked to the devil and I made a deal
Covering it up, covering it up
I swear I had the worst luck
Shaking so bad, mum had to tuck me up

24 hours in Singapore, my body felt poor
Lets take it 2 years back, I was lying on the floor
3 days more without any sleep, theres plenty more
10pm I could feel it kicking in, 12 I started shaking
Is this what your faking
At 2am, i could see the pain, I could literally visualise it
Climbing up the walls and shit, black bubbles driving me insane
Hotel skyscraper, city lights giving me a migraine
Now and then i'd start to shake