Nobody

I been countin' my blessings, writin' with no ending
Fuck defending pretending, man I'm ascending
Since childhood I been misunderstood
If I could change myself I would, this bottle does no good
Back in elementary, unfriendly memories
Taunted by the other kids cause' I thought different
Bullies snatched my dignity, had no group activity
Man I sat miserably, this is me, a nobody
Fake friends are enemies, they frenemies
Don't mess with me, no empathy
Think you tough cause you got a felony

I sided with the angels did myself a favor
Ink on a paper, this is something greater
Wanted to be everything that I was not
Headphones on and I watch, kids smoke pot and get caught by the cops
Sit in the same spot and jot
Thoughts saying end it with a gunshot, one shot
And I'm gone, carry on, friend or foe
I don't trust what you show, love or lust I don't know, just let go

Since birth I been trying to leave this earth
We all end up in the dirt, that's how much we worth
Workin' for a branded shirt, poppin' pills to ease the hurt
Kill others to be first, then we show up at church
Bible in our hand, hopin' He'll understand
But the Devil settles in our mental, then we fall and tremble
Love is absent, just one night stands that's it
Stop askin', they lackin', the passion, just actin'
And maskin', and that's it, I've had it
God damn it, can't stand it, I don't understand it, I quit
Nothing above, I've had enough, take a puff
On the bus, cold cuts take my trust, make myself adjust
Been declined, many times, left behind, out of mind
I just say it's fine, no replies, no surprise
Fuck acceptance, kids always ignored my presence
Left prom in 20 minutes with a lesson
I can't be accepted, this solitude was destined
Maybe that's a blessin', but I always question the depression
Now you only see me talkin' to these Beasts
To ease my pain and get relief, to treat my grief and
Keep my peace, to live the streets and feel the breeze
Soulless bodies, they're all copies, what does God see
Beyond me, upon me, respond please

Sided with the angels did myself a favor
Ink on a paper, this is something greater
Wanted to be everything that I was not
Headphones on and I watch, kids smoke pot and get caught by the cops
Sit in the same spot and jot, thoughts saying end it with a gunshot, one shot
And I'm gone, carry on, friend or foe
I don't trust what you show, love or lust I don't know, just let go

I wasn't there in the first place, the odd shape
The one that couldn't fit straight, relate or communicate
All I saw were snakes and fakes, kids with powder in their face
Too much drama I need a break, to go find an escape
I look around, sex, drugs, money is what its about
Please shut your mouth, every kid lookin' for some clout
Damn their parents must be proud, watchin' their kids blow clouds
Sell drugs around town, snort lines off the ground
I get that you're young, and you want smoke in your lungs
While you blast lil' Pump on the sidewalk getting drunk
I will never understand why you do what you do
And why I can't be like you, and step in your shoes
Got use to being the lonely owl on the tree
Who sees everything differently, and vividly
Who has the ability to live invisibly, unwillingly
But I guess this is me, just another nobody