Wish I Was Here

In a state of disarray
A married fear of missing out
And of being there
Soul on display

I bore a shroud
And I shed my shell
On the day my stomach burst
And butterflies flew out

I bathe in turquoise
And I sleep in teal
Do the blues still register
In the colour-blind eye?

Don't dim the houselights
Don't dim the house
My warning light's been on for
Some years now

We have stayed here far too late
And fuck if I can find another way
To leave or arrive and make everyone love me
Every time

Kill yourself with kindness
Kill yourself with kindness
Or some kind of it
You're a killer now

I ran my way home
And I rode the coattails of
A white ambulance
On a greying road

Got some poor advice
From a boy who died
Swallowing
His own skinny fingers

While I had my hand
Under a dress
At the wedding of
A bride I never knew

We have stayed here far too late
And fuck if I can find another way
To leave or arrive and make everyone love me
Every time

Why'd you say this is the place?
I wish it was but I see twenty faces
With sharp tongues and honey-coloured eyes
Alight

I fake the fight
And I feign the confidence
Am I not
A fine and mighty actor?

I heard a song
And kept humming along
To the unpatriotic cry
Of a depressed man