What Happened Kid?

Aye, it's been so long, but I've still been here
Through all the water, it's still not clear?
Bottom line, I guess I know you're stressed
Who am I to say how to get you out of your mess?
I heard you
Every time you confessed
And every tear that fell onto your chest
I've kept so that one day you'll see the pain inside being blessed
It's not like I'm risen
It's not like I'm the One without sin you were given
For the exact purpose you've been
Searching for, the reason for living
It's sickened
Truth in the matter of trust being twisted
Son in the sky will never die
'Cause I gave you the price when mine did

You gave me the world but you left me in that garden
Banished me from all now we've parted
Do you love me?
If I'm infected with sin, are you loving?
Are you above me?
While I'm sinking below
The water was clear but now my sight is foggy
It's hard to trust unknown entities here
When faith leaves
But I guess it's my fault
A sinful man, doing my part
Although I pray, it's with a half heart
Cause I can't stand when I see my life fall apart
Alone is how I've been
When the thoughts of suicide make me feel alive
I'm sick and I can't win, I'm stressed, depressed
You placed me in an ocean and I can't swim

But I know I'm just a human
I know I can't begin to understand
All the joy inside the pain and
I'm beginning to see the demons
Turning out as my reflection
The confusion that I don't mention
Becomes what I see as the ocean the I'm trapped in, yeah

I guess, sometimes I wish
That the times I wished, I could just get back
In fact, I wanna talk to the old me, ask myself

"What happened, kid? At what point did it all start happening?
Since when did you become a pitiful, resentful, broken piece of a
Man that you can't even stand to try to think about
Full of doubt, hate the sin, what you're in
You need out, grab my hand, don't give in
While I sit and hold you together
Torn apart but I'll be the Mender
Sick of sin, yet one day it'll be me and you here forever"