Freak Show

I got crazy thoughts that stay on my mind
I promise I'm fine
I'm doing alright
And I'm back again

Have you ever been so gone?
Have you ever felt so strong?
So wrong, like you belong, hah
Thinking I belong too
And I've been thinking for a while what I might do
Break through
Know I have to
I didn't want to have to do it, but you slither as I past you
Can't keep a pet snake, one day,
it'll get outta its cage and run away like the last few
This was never started for the money
Or the fame or the chants for my name
It was just an escape
Where I could write out all the sinister thoughts up in
my head incorporate it into songs to try to keep myself safe
But nobody wanna see the bigger picture
All they focused on is how I'm having money coming quicker
Every day the population drifts away from the scriptures

Here's the kicker, I don't think the world will ever see fixture
It's rare to see a person take risk in their life
And work for what they want instead of working 9-5's
Because it's harder and they fear how will they ever survive
Without a check from someone else's bank to keep them alive
And if you're happy, that's fine
Go and check your schedule, another person assigned
But for me I see it bigger and I've made up my mind
So stop saying I can't, this decision is mine

Tell me why do I still feel so alone?
Don't tell me I'm wrong
Been gone for too long
But I'm back again
I got crazy thoughts that stay on my mind
I promise I'm fine
I'm doing alright
And I'm back again

Aye' let me put you in my shoes
Do you feel on edge with my views?
I guess I understand what you mean when
you say that it feels weird under my roof
Sometimes I've got a short fuse
I apologize if I snap and I say something that I don't mean
Bear with me please, I'm a little bit lost and real confused
But I guess I can't lie, yeah I stay consumed
With all the projects and the work that I get stuck in my room
And I'm just searching for the rise so I can come up and boom
Somehow now it's me that they looking up to
What do y'all expect me to do?
I'm only 21, you really think I thought this through?
The old me thought that I would've been dead by now
Okayyy, if he only knew
Yeah, ay

I can not go backwards in my life
If I could do it all again, then I would do it twice
Because I refuse to let regret go consume my mind
And do whatever that you want but please don't waste my time
At the end of the day, this is only a rhyme
And I am only a guy who is just like you
Sitting here in his room, just trying to write
Focused on pleasing the people who raised me
If you do not know me, then please do not play with me
I'm a ticking time bomb, liable to pop off
Push me to the edge, do whatever that you want
But please God can you please stop telling me that I'm wrong

Tell me why do I still feel so alone?
Don't tell me I'm wrong
Been gone for way too long
But I'm back again
I got crazy thoughts that stay on my mind
I promise I'm fine
I'm doing alright
And I'm back again
And I got crazy thoughts that stay on my mind
I promise I'm fine
I'm doing alright
And I'm back again