Moments a Year from Now

Sometimes I wonder
What I'm doing at this moment
That I'll be cringing at a year from now
When I think about it

Like getting tattooed
Or something less permanent
Like the color of my shoes
Or the people I've been hanging with

And I might never get over it
I'll just get so much better at living with my shit
And we don't forget anything
We just lose the ability to access it in our brains

Sometimes the answers
To everything I've ever wondered
About life and death
And what comes after
Come to me as I lie between
Being awake and falling asleep

So if I zone out
While you're talking to me
It doesn't mean that I'm not listening
I'm just caught up in a moment
I have a tendency to get lost in the irrelevant details of the story
Like the color that your shoes were the day you walked away from me

And we might never get over it
We'll just get so much better at living in our shit
And we don't forget anything
We just lose our desires to relive the memories

Sometimes the answers
To everything I've ever wondered
About life and death
And what comes after
Come to me as I fall asleep
But they're gone by the morning

And I wonder
What I'm doing at this moment
That I'll be cringing at a year from now
When I think about it