Wonder Why

I've been up thinking, " It's so late."
Wish that it wasn't so cold, aye
Wishing that I could hit replay
Wonder why nobody will stay?

I've been up thinking, " It's so late."
Wish that it wasn't so cold, aye
Wishing that I could hit replay
Wonder why nobody will stay?

It's so deranged how I feel
Do I feel it all through?
So insane for me to think all the times that we hold
Little things get to me, I agree that I'm blue
By myself, hate to admit it, will I learn to let go?
What's the past anyway?
It's just pictures and feelings that I can't seem to leave
What's wrong with me?
Why can't I be free?
Why can't I just be?
Simple like, work, go home, eat, sleep
Can't fake it if I tried
And if I did you wouldn't care
Separate my thoughts and my despair
Trade it for a smile that I'll always wear
I separate my mind from who I was
Can't keep you in my heart because it hurts
Remind myself that things have been worse
Remember that I have so much worth

I put my lack of confidence as first priority
Wanted me to change, forgive, I'm sorry
Wasn't there for you because I parted
Had plans for you, I wish they started
Should've gave you more, I was so selfish
Was so selfish, I was feeling helpless
Feeling helpless, wasn't fair to choose
Overzealous in pursuit of you

I've been up thinking, " It's so late."
Wish that it wasn't so cold, aye
Wishing that I could hit replay
Wonder why nobody will stay?

I've been up thinking, " It's so late."
Wish that it wasn't so cold, aye
Wishing that I could hit replay
Wonder why nobody will stay?

Ouu, I know, I know, I know
I know I come and go
Zodiac's paired with that Leo
Ouu, you know, you know, you know
You know I come and go
Can't keep up my self control

Let my mind run
Don't plan to fall to the drugs
But, I sometimes self-indulge
Friendly reminder
That I'm right behind ya
But, don't stand close to me
You know I like being lonely
I like life most when I'm running
But, you only see me ever walking
Most the time it's paired with talking
Now
Ain't
That
Too Funny

Ain't shit, and I know it
Ain't shit, and I'll show it
Paint it, brush is pointed
Paint it, color's boring
Sang it

Am I good at it?
In the car, I tend to practice
Falling on my mattress
Covers wrap me in the sadness
I know
I know
I know that I'm a joke to you
I know
I know
I'm falling, but there's hope with you

Ouu
I know
I know

Won't you take this time so I don't have to wonder why?