The Afterbath

Wait until I'm gone
Or for the end of this song
To let it all ring true
Hate, it comes too late
But as you're walking away
Know I won't forget you
Well forgive me father for I have sinned
And I'm prone to know I wanna do it all again
But if I shit the bed then I'll watch what grows
From the seed I planted into a rose

But if this nothing came from something
Then what should I become
To you but an intruder
When you and I are so far gone?
I'll drift back through the atmosphere
And struggle to come back down
But I still thought to write
Just to know you're safe and sound

Before we shut that door
Know there's a part of me
Burried beneath your floorboards
And the worst rehearsed curse
I'll never leave this house
Without that unquenchable thirst
Until I lay down in the middle of the street
And let those traffic lights illuminate me
From a blood stained red to an amber glow
That somehow ends my envy and so I rose

But if this nothing came from something
Then I dare not retract
And in the moment all I see is the back of your mind
I'll be standing in the corner trying to kick my own ass
I wish I could sit back down
But my skin is bare and raw
So I'll just stand and smile
As I see you're better off

And what if had I'd have listened
I wouldn't need recovery without abusing it
And what if had I'd have listened
I wouldn't need to open the jar had I'd have loosened it