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To save my soul before I go
The change I've made only he knows
So save me now before you close
I'm reaching out I know I'm close

What you wanted was simple but what you needed wasn't easy
When I needed you gave, I hope I didn't seem greedy
I look up to you as people and not only as my family
You show me as a couple when you're an equal, you're equal
You need to find a balance to live uniquely and peaceful
I have a baby now, I'm creating the sequel
This life is not a game and it surely ain't a movie
Deuteronomy 30, 15, it's laid out
I'll continue lacing shoes until my dues are paid out
I'll never question you again my lord
I just need some understanding of your plan and hear me now
I'm trying, prying at the devil's fingertips and ripped skin
Praying in the rain, Lord my heart is open seeping
I can't explain it, the pain it kinda numbs me, bums me
Come please, if it is a movie, direct me
Betty Ann I miss you, what I give to let you
See my baby girl just once in the flesh
I loved it how you met my wife and you two meshed
But through the pain I can't deny the fact I'm blessed
My Kima has spun beyond words and I can't explain her beauty
My wife is so perfect, not a better mother suited
Show me what your fruit is, I'm imprisoned by impressions of depression
This obsession and deception is something that we probably ain't properly addressing
I'm guessing Lord willing will I grow it?
My fear is that we don't want no knowledge of the difference
God gives us plenty of chances just to blow it
We do it every time, praying that he shows it but ignoring all the signs
To save me now before you close, I'm reaching out

The devil tried to take my soul, tried to say the heavens closed
Told me that hell is close, so just hop inside and roll
But I was only blind, messed up one too many times
Realized all the lies, now I'm screaming Jesus Christ
To save my soul before I go, the change I've made, only he knows
So save me now, before you close, I'm reaching out, I know I'm close

I was living my life, but I was living for the wrong dude
Adjusting my appearance and style to one they all knew
Acting like somebody I'm not, just for some fame and a shot
Just for a name and a number, but my name I forgot
Who I was and what I was doing to myself
Where I'm from instead I was acting like someone else
In my childhood room, looking at pictures on the shelf
Searching the true meaning of life and a deeper meaning of wealth
And who would've known I would've been found passed out on the bathroom floor
Of a hotel room trash can half full of blood, probably would've been more
Only one knows what happened, dramatic, couldn't even stay conscious
Left a little traumatized, now I can't even look at a bottle without feeling nauseous
I know that I gotta stop this before I end up dropped in a coffin
Cause my mind is locked in this nonsense
With the conscience telling me this could not end
I need to be saved, I need a change for the better
My health is breaking, I've been praying for forever
And I don't know why I've been so blind to what's in front of me
I have a family, a family who looks up to me
They all love me, only wanna see me doing good
I had to leave them, they only want me out the hood
This world is ugly, but I take care of my girls the way I should
And nothing could change that, nothing ever could
Now it's time I learn my faith, open up the book
I read before and didn't learn, I need a closer look
I was close before I fell off, became so distant
But I want you back in my life, Lord, just hear my vision
I've been reaching out a few times, hoping you listen
Only when I need you the most, instead of every minute
I need to look for you more, instead of every Christmas
In the name of the Father, the Son, and Holy Spirit

The devil tried to take my soul, tried to say the heavens closed
Told me that hell is close, so just hop inside and roll
But I was only blind, messed up one too many times
Realized all the lies, now I'm screaming Jesus Christ
To save my soul before I go
The change I've made, only he knows
So save me now, before you close
I'm reaching out, I know I'm close



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Writer(s): Isaiah Pacheco
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