Mental Funerals

So once again I say,
My time is not a natural resource.
It is not renewable.
Inexcusable, unsuitable,
I had to hold a mental funeral for you,
for you are as good as dead in my head.
As I lay you to rest I find this theory provable,
that death in fact can be beautiful
when your burdens become removable.
Tik tok goes the clock
the earth turns as usual,
my time is not a natural resource
it is not renewable.
The way I miss you, you would think that I'm grieving
How you up and leave me say you got reasons
(Oh no no no)
Can't even lie swear this s is deceiving
Done with love swear I'm done with believing
Swear to God it's a funeral
Laying us to rest that s took my soul
(it took my soul)
Mental funerals,
Ain't no after life guess it's time to go
(It's time to go)
Ask my momma I hate funerals,
ain't even go inside the church to see my cousin go (no no)
Can't even lie I think I'm grieving,
I was trying to trash all our pictures now I'm retrieving
Thought of you leaving, I'm trying to wake up
This ain't a dream, it's what it seems, now I'ma have to grow up
Ain't got no angel tell me how I'm 'pose to reach you
Said that you was gone and one day that I'm gon' need you
That's how you feel?
You always say s out of spite don't know what's real
We made a deal
You was supposed to be my friend if all things failed
Now it's something like forget that n (I can't forget you)
I might do something just to show that bitch
that he ain't really f with her (he don't even love you)
I might do something I regret my n
I'm thinking f it I might up one
Im thinking f love (f love)
The way I miss you
you would think that I'm grieving
How you up and leave me say you got reasons
(Oh no no no)
Can't even lie swear this s is deceiving
Done with love swear I'm done with believing
Swear to god it's a funeral
Laying us to rest that s took my soul
(It took my soul)
Mental funerals
Ain't no after life guess it's time to go
(It's time to go)
Now name one bitch who would've stayed with you
And tell me why you think I play with you
I call my brothers they gon' shoot
They won't even think about it
They pull up in twos
Ain't got much to say about it
I might beat a bitch about it
(Yeah)
Said I might beat a bitch about it
Said she give you peace, I doubt it
I kept it a hundred thousand
I know how you feeling n
You made me feel that way the thousand times you sh n (yeah)
Now you out there acting bitter n
Now you out there acting bitter (bitter)
The way I miss you, you would think that I'm grieving
How you up and leave me say you got reasons?
(Oh no no no)
I swear this s is deceiving,
I'm done with love, I'm done believing
Im done with love
You took my trust
(Mhhm)