WeddingVows

Do you solemnly swear to take this depression
I do
To hug and hold your anxieties
I do
Because maybe if I fall in love with my problems they'll leave me too

Always been a troubled kid and
Always been in trouble kid cause
Thats just the way life is the way it is
And how can I know other than this if I've never had anything but this

Cause they tell me to fix me I gotta go see someone who'll pick me
Apart starting from my brain all the way down to who I believe I been
All these years before and the ones to come and I don't even know
If I have it in me to listen to their metaphors cause
If I wanted someone to tell me what I already know
I would've asked my ex because he done told me all that and more
He used his fists everyday to remind me how flawed I am to my core
So don't tell me that I need this shit to grow
And yes I'm messed up I know
I overthink what Im thinking overwrite what I'm writing
Till my flow quit flowing and my pen quit writing
Cause I over try all that I try and
When I finally realize it
Its over and there nothing left for me to be trying
But despite all that despite the fighting
I be igniting in my head with myself cause theres nobody instead for me to hit
Everybody left they let me push them away didn't care to stay trying
But despite all that one day on God ill be motherfucking flying

I'll hold all my troubles
And hold all my struggles
Until
I make it out
Engaged to my problems
Ring on my dramas
One day
I'll escape
I'll hold my head up high
Oh I'll hold my head up high
Untill it weigh
No more

I have a hard time telling people what I think
And a even harder time letting them same people in
Cause why let someone know how you feel
If one day down the road they'll just use it to make you reel
In hurt and sorrow and pain like no other
Why share your emotions with someone and give them such power
Why not be closed off to everyone for literally ever
Do any of them deserve the real you to hold and treasure
Cause would they even treasure would they even treasure you
Or would they do you like they always do
Would they hurt you play you tease you till they done
Hold you to unbelievable standards and give your emotions no regard
I have yet to meet a single bitch who didn't act a dog
So I spend my life in search of the one
That'll prove them all wrong
Oh they'll prove them all wrong
So I hold onto my hope like it's my God
And I may not be there and I may not see it
But one day ill show yall all y'all
Swear i'll achieve it
Aint none these problems gon be the reason
That I ever take a hit and let it end my believing

I'll hold all my troubles
And hold all my struggles
Until
I make it out
Engaged to my problems
Ring on my dramas
One day
I'll escape
I'll hold my head up high
Oh I'll hold my head up high
Untill it weigh
No more