Pray for Rain

At the mantle of the heart
A river flows inside
We drain ourselves in steady streams
Until the river runs dry

At times, these tides define us
Deny us of ourselves
A finite source of optimism
That leaves a hollow shell

And as the seasons pass
And winter's numbing cold gives way to pain
We light these fires to sit beside
As we pray like hell for rain

(But when the night grows cold)
(And when the fire fades)
At the hour before the dawn
The last embers burn 'til day
It's all I hang my hope upon
You can't take that away from me

Every morning in the mirror I see
My worst enemy reflected in me
'Cause I'm a born unbeliever, a cynical soul
I can only trust as far as I see

But every time I close my eyes
I'm who I used to be (who I used to be)
I never thought I'd feel so cold
Until the fire faded out in me

I've never felt so cold
Such sacrifice for so little to show
To learn these lessons
I never wanted to know
That we will all die alone
And how my blood remains on the tip of the blade
As it severs the flesh from the bone

So far beyond the below
I was there when they sowed the seed
I was there when the rats came out to feed
And when the rain came
It extinguished the flame in me

As I slept
The seeds of doubt were sown
I tore my heart apart for this
In hopes my light would grow

And I dreamt about a place
Where all our virtue could withstand
I woke in fright, appalled to find
The blood was on my hands

But every time I close my eyes
I'm who I used to be (who I used to be)
I never thought I'd feel so cold
Until the fire faded out in me

I've never felt so cold