Winter Solstice (feat. Samantha Leah)

It's quite emotional
You know?
But it is what it is you know

Yo, uh
Christmas is coming, It doesn't feel like Christmas is coming
I'm quite the pessimist this time of the year
I hope I find a place to shed my tears, ya
Christmas is coming, why it never feel like Christmas is coming?
It's probably because my family fucked up
Or probably cause my money ain't in lump sums
I don't buy presents until after the holidays
When the buy one, get two half off signs wave
And I still may not make a purchase
Now my fuckin' insecurities got feeling so worthless
How I feel about religion got my prayers feeling so churchless
If my soul ain't for sale then what is my sole purpose
Rollin' down La Brea on the 212
I heard my worst enemy wished I do well
I heard a close friend of me ain't too fond of me
I got word that this tinder match wanna follow me
She wanna link up tonight
And I rather spend time with her than
with folks I've known my whole life like
Christmas ain't coming, I'm acting like Christmas ain't coming
There's no bonds, just blood relationships
I really hate this shit
But Christmas is coming, I want it to feel like Christmas is coming
Let me be vulnerable & face my fears
Don't wanna hide my face when I shed tears, baby

I'm extra cold this year (I know that I'm sad this time of year)
(so cold, so cold)
I wanna face my fears (always)
And it's always the same, always the same, always the same

So what do you believe?
Give the kids what they want? or get what you need?
But whats more painful to see?
No food in the fridge or no presents under tree?
The youth watching so there's accidental lessons we may teach
The past got you in the box, feel like the present not for me
My shelter not a home, & I been stressin' out for weeks
A long hug may just make me feel complete
I apologize if my emotions getting the best of me
I been letting all my dirty laundry mess with me
And the only way to get better,
is to address it when it's fresh & in the
name of love i pray you take these steps with me
There's this underlining pressure to be great
But when there's so many distractions & it's hard to concentrate
Sometimes you get so caught in all the regret & shame
Which is why every 365 I feel the same

I'm extra cold this year (I just wanna feel, I just wanna feel like)
I wanna face my fears
And it's always the same, always the same, always the same