Mercury Retrofade

In the middle of drowning, she said to herself
Well, if I'm underwater I might as well swim!

Paradoxes and mutabilities
Lost loves and forgotten memories
Streams flowin' backwards without a melody
I feel like Mercury
Retrofaded, on my knees saying
Ooo please
Think of me, I'll sneeze
I couldn't see the forest, only datin' white trees
Smoke em once, get so high ya can't see
But now I'm coming down, tryna focus on me, oh
Thought I knew you, maybe I outgrew you
Said you'd show me everything, but is this the true you?
I cry harder tryna hold it all in
But I hide it with a smile, don't display chaos within
Laughter as survival
I treat that shit like Bible
The tears only seem pretty when they're coming from my idols
The spiral's my rival, emotions run tidal
Married to these feelings but this shower ain't bridal

Laugh 'til ya die, hold yourself and
Laugh when you should cry
Giggle while you're high and fly
Never let yourself ask why
Laugh 'til ya die, hold yourself and
Laugh when you should cry
Breathe a sigh and take in the sky
See your life in the clouds passing by

Retrofaded, baby yeah I'm jaded
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, self-medicated
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated

Yeah we've been sad, can't be that way forever
Drivin' me mad, this emotional tether
We've been soft, we've been lighter than a feather
Now I ask myself if this a tie I gotta sever, oh
Never, let's just treat each other better
Whether clouds outside change our inner weather
I wrote you a letter, treated you like a debtor
Call me I'm stupid in love, coz I'm still wearing your sweater
We look like we're both doing fine
Coz our coping mechanisms don't align
Outta sight, outta mind, don't press rewind
We tried this shit before, then you said you were mine
Was I feelings to feel and a place to stay?
Questions I still ask like how'd it end up this way
Laughter as survival
I treat that shit like Bible
The tears only seem pretty when they're coming from my idols
The spiral's my rival, emotions run tidal
Married to these feelings but this shower ain't bridal

Laugh 'til ya die, hold yourself and
Laugh when you should cry
Giggle while you're high and fly
Never let yourself ask why
Laugh 'til ya die, hold yourself and
Laugh when you should cry
Breathe a sigh and take in the sky
See your life in the clouds passing by

Walkin through these streets trapped in my head, still tangled in the sheets of that strangers bed, you wanna smile, wait a while, that's what Daddy said
Focus on the future but it's too far ahead
Walkin through these streets trapped in my head, still tangled in the sheets of that Strangers bed, you wanna smile, wait a while, that's what Daddy said
Focus on the future but it's too far ahead
Walkin through these streets trapped in my head, still tangled in the sheets of that Strangers bed, you wanna smile, wait a while, that's what Daddy said
Focus on the future but it's too far ahead
(Retrofaded, baby yeah I'm jaded
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, self-medicated
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated)

A summer night bug bite, an itch I didn't wanna fight
I chased a light, it shined so bright, I'm letting go of all this spite

Laugh 'til ya die, hold yourself and
Laugh when you should cry
Giggle while you're high and fly
Never let yourself ask why
Laugh 'til ya die, hold yourself and
Laugh when you should cry
Breathe a sigh and take in the sky
See your life in the clouds passing by

Retrofaded, baby yeah I'm jaded
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, self-medicated
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, baby yeah I'm jaded
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated
Retrofaded, self-medicated
Retrograde it, coz this high is overrated