In My Eyes

They say you write best when there's pain up in your chest
But what happens when you're numb and you're brain's a total mess?
I'm human, I'm the farthest thing from perfect
I've got my own issues but I swear to you I'm worth it
Always been the type to let it all build up
Then overflow with emotions once it all fills up
But I took that first step, I've been working on myself
Took a look into the mirror, shed the pride & sought help
Now I'm learning how to cope which has given me some hope
Cause I've been stubborn not admitting I was at the end of my rope
So I'm tryna find my peace, flush the demons out for good
Shut the door to my past and be the best me that I could
I know it's hard to understand but in time I know you'll see
I'm not the person I used to be and my day ones will all agree
It's time to elevate and it's taken me a while
But in life you gotta hurt to appreciate a smile

I was so blind for such a long time
Didn't see the signs, trapped in my mind
I apologize, hope you know I tried
Now looking in my eyes please tell me what you find
When you look into my eyes do you still see the pain?
Can you still feel the love? Do I still look insane?
Is there anything you see still worthy to attain?
When you look into my eyes I hope you still feel the same

I've been looking for a sign, anything to give me drive
But we all break down tryna make it out alive
I've been selfish, I've been cruel, said things I didn't mean
Took my anger out on love cause it's all I'd ever seen
Ran away from the fights, tryna blow off some steam
Never looking back to see you tried to silence all my screams
What a slap in the face, leaving you at your place
Taking off like a race, you got tired of the chase
I can't blame you for telling me you had as much as you could take
You cried out too many times, I couldn't get past your mistakes
Broke promises we made to never make each other ache
Now in the midst of destruction, I lie in bed awake
Regret is too weak to describe the way I feel
So I've gotta give it time cause I've heard that it heals
Hopefully with that, it'll be easier to conceal
But when you look at me, better know the love was real

I was so blind for such a long time
Didn't see the signs, trapped in my mind
I apologize, hope you know I tried
Now looking in my eyes please tell me what you find
When you look into my eyes do you still see the pain?
Can you still feel the love? Do I still look insane?
Is there anything you see still worthy to attain?
When you look into my eyes I hope you still feel the same