Mind Under Matter

Can I go back to the days where I could see?
All of these faces grow blurrier in front of me
Holding onto what's left of my reality
Just let me go back

I'm losing grip of myself
My memory is infected
My mind and my body have become disconnected (Disconnected)

My own voice whispers in my ear
It's getting harder to tell
which of the two is real

Oh, this sick and twisted reality
It's burning at my seams
No, I can't exist in this duality

I cannot exist

How dare they accuse, and how dare they think
That I've become any less of a human being?
I am not deranged, I am not insane
I'm just stuck in here, stuck inside this dream

This came on far too soon, and
None of this was supposed to be seen
I'm not ready to let this be, no
This fog won't be the end of me

I hope that they can see
that this is not who I am
My mind's been consumed
It's not my life anymore

I only hope they look
inside of these eyes
And remember (And remember)
Remember the times we share on brighter days

The blackout comes and all I see is red
I am afflicted, but I won't plead insanity

I'm losing all control
Who are these people? How do they know my name?
I have to find my way out of this hell
I just wanna go home, this home is not my own

There's no way out
The fabric has torn
I'm being buried alive
Inside of this skull

I can't let this be how they remember me
How could I let this become of me?

My better half, I'm sorry
This infernal clock, it won't slow down
It wasn't supposed to be like this, no!
I had so much more planned for you and I

I hope that they can see
that this is not who I am
My mind's been consumed, and
It's not my life anymore

I only hope they look
inside of these eyes
And remember (And remember)
Remember the times we share on brighter days

Just put your mind at ease
I know it's just this horrible disease
Holding on to brighter days
(The brighter days are all that's left of me)

Nothing is harder, nothing's worse
I never wanted to come to terms
It's sad to say, it's for the best
Put your trust in me, and lay your mind to rest

No more can I decide what's right
No more can I put up this fight
In my own blood, I'll trust forever
I'll fight no more, I surrender

I surrender

It's not easy, but I'll try my best
To see the choices you make are for the best
The brighter days are all that's left of me