Mirrors

Not sure how to dive into this
I have been feeling sick for a long time
There's shit on my mind I can't hide
At night, it multiplies when I close my eyes
Last weeks have been kinda rough
Stuck in my thoughts, could use a day off
A 9-5 job to be keeping this up
It's so much and I feel rushed
Wish I could find a better sound
And push the doubt out
Don't let it fool me, stand my damn ground
Be proud of what I wrote down
And somehow managed to record on my own now
But you know how it goes
Ones' goals like god, high above
An unreachable top, whether I like it or not
Feels like I failed so I try again
Hoping this time I'll finally smile
When push comes to shove
Though, I don't know

I don't know
If I want to be who I've become
'Cause all those memories have taken their toll
I don't know
If I'll ever be who I want to see
I would try but the mirrors are bending with me

Another year, facing fall
Trying to stand tall with hands tied and my back against the wall
It all got very real very fast
Need to make a living, need to fucking pay for the car
Got no clue where to start between uni and a part-time job
Every option seems fucked when your shit lies in a bus
Plus 6 hours of driving to the show and no one shows up
Maybe after AER I need fresh start
No, I ain't mad, I just reflect on good and bad times I had
So now I look back, on my own 4Track
Tell me was it worth that?
But you know how it goes
Ones mistakes like ghosts
Outlive and haunt you for no other reason
Than to make you believe that
All you did was beneath what
You'd achieve when you truly would've tried more
Though, I don't know

I don't know
If I want to be who I've become
'Cause all those memories have taken their toll
I don't know
If I'll ever be who I want to see
I would try but the mirrors are bending with me

It's a fucked up thing
When what you see ain't true
So don't let them in
Don't let your own eyes betray you
Fears will bloom
And make mirrors lie
Expectations rise
Don't let reflections rule your life



Credits
Writer(s): Daniel Rebenich
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