Heart Song

I'm lost, I'm struggling
These are the parts to my life to my life
They don't ever see
I'm paralyzed to my feelings
I can't stand them
My heart's feeling empty
I don't know how to deal
I'm slowly losing people who kept me standing
Forget about comfort, I'm crash-landing

Into the bottom of the pits of life
Help me God!
But before I talk to You
Let me vent some more

It was '07 that's when I lost my brother
A few years later I still see the pain in my mother
You gave me people who only lasted a season
I was once told that everything happens for a reason

When Judgment Day comes I know I'll be one of the sheep
But until then I'll keep crying myself to sleep
I've had to learn responsibility and grow in some areas

I know I'm afraid of heights
But if I was sky diving
You'd be the parachute

But so often I don't let you
Your ways are higher than my ways Lord
That's why I don't get You

There were times when I felt despair
I got a phonebook full of contacts but no one is there
Suicide? I tried that once or twice
But I guess you had other plans for me
Why am I still breathing?
This is a heart song
Because it comes from the heart

You said You'd never leave me nor forsake me
But sometimes I feel lonely in this cold, cold world I even shiver
I've chased after everything
But You're the joy giver

I don't know if I'll be here tomorrow
I'm just a man with a heart full of sorrow, keep me Lord

I don't know if I'll be here tomorrow
I'm just a man with a heart full of sorrow, so keep me Lord
If you will

Some people are like oxygen to me
The moment they leave my life
I slowly suffocate

Heart of stone
It's hard to penetrate it
Mentally disorientated
My life is complicated

Sometimes I do the right thing
But I'm still wrong
I'm superficially told... I gotta stay strong.
Superficially told... I gotta stay strong.
I'm spoilt everything I've ever wanted is going off

It's like it never existed
How could I have missed it?
All the times when I've actually missed it
Fighting to make something of myself
Is this it?

These are just words from a young man who's hurting too
Chasing after everything in life
That he wanted to

These are just words from a young man who's hurting too
Chasing after everything in life
That he wanted to

Man of many flaws that's what I am
Trapped in my emotions well that's how I feel
Writing songs well that's how I deal

Overlooking wounds that only God can heal
Man of many flaws that's what I am
Trapped in my emotions well that's how I feel

Writing songs well that's how I deal
Overlooking wounds that only God can heal