Close My Eyes

When I got the news, all I felt was rage
And then slowly it turned to pain
I guess I never felt the same
Ever since I first saw your grave

You was there first time I ever caught a wave
Way back in 011 margs's barbecue
I weren't even rolling I was in the hood just passing through
Saw you there and I had to stay for a glass or two

Always bussing joke you gave me more than a laugh or two
Hard to find somebody that can make me laugh as hard as you
First video I ever shot was in the park with you
No amount of time will take away the pain of losing you

Ever see that - I'll just bang him I won't use a tool
Twelve years? That's the same amount that you do in school
But two wrongs will never make a right
I know you're watching over my life
RIP my guy

You're gone not forgotten and it's no surprise
Coz I still see you when I close my eyes
I still see you when I close my eyes, yeah

And as I wrote this I had to hold back tears
Coz I still reminisce on our golden years
I still reminisce the golden years

The way you died still hurts me
You were my next door neighbour since nursery
Even though your family come from Turkey
You were the sis I never had and it hurts me

We went the same primary, just a different class
You had Mr Hall, I had Mr Charles
The day you died I saw your sister and it hit her hard
To bring some flowers was my first step in your yard

The nights you cried yourself to sleep had me stressing out
I wish we spoke a lot more so you can let it out
Invited you to my seventh and you didn't come
I saw you every other day but you just missed the one

Now you're gone and I miss you every single day
I guess you were the one that got away
Every time I see your mum I don't know what to say
But one day I know we'll meet again another way

You're gone not forgotten and it's no surprise
Coz I still see you when I close my eyes
I still see you when I close my eyes, yeah

And as I wrote this I had to hold back tears
Coz I still reminisce on our golden years
I still reminisce the golden years