Existence

I feel enslaved
Confined to this flesh that is continuously rotting
Shackled to an empty vessel
Sentenced to a life deprived of meaning
Bound to a body a being Begging to be set free

Is it wrong I envy the dead
Being free of all of life's pressures with no sense of regret
Is it wrong that I envy the dead
Being free of all of life's pressures with no sense of regret

Embodied in torment
Our existence is absolute suffering
A state of surrender bestowed upon me
Agonizing pain in the process of living
Visions of the end
The inevitability of mortality is my only salvation
Forced into a life of hardship and misery
An escape from this maze is just a rest from this sickening game

Now that I'm one with the dead
Unexisitng a pleasure truly unmatched
Unable to see unable to hear unable to breathe
No longer able to touch or feel a thing
As movement withers away
Thoughts empty as fate turns to a hollow consciousness
Freedom is reached as I cease to be

Ripping tearing pulling away meat from bone Shedding skin
Vital organs now exposed Utter mutilation torn limb from limb
Complete dismemberment unfolds
Piece by piece is stripped Never to be whole again

Waiting for my final breath
What I've become
A state of mere nothingness
Suffering endures in turn we're drawn to it's depths
And question our significance
Primal urges rise by nature leading us to exit a tortured existence
Fear and doubt hinder the ability
To take the final step with no consequence
Desperation consumes me I choose to end my life and exit existence
I can no longer be for I am nothing
This existence disgusts me It's fucking disgusting