Walls

I woke up this morning thinking bout everything
I've done to this point in time
Every conversation, every idea, every decision
And I just wondered if there was ever a purpose to it all
Like is there a meaning and what's it really worth
I guess that's for you to decide

Would you believe I said I need you here
Cause as of late when shit feel good I usually disappear
When I'm the happiest it's odd I'm awful full of fear
I'm tryna steer you clear
But can't help sensing feeling end is near I reappear
Don't be confused it's rather insincere
I've been amused too many times around this time of year it's hard to feel
Like if we start to see us as a means to an end
I fight the feeling never finish what I mean to begin

I sit and think about the stars for a minute
Like if I rise above the Ye's and Dre's the sky feel infinite
I'll drive the coupe that's on a loop when I get my windows tinted
I'm feeling fly but could takeoff and hit Dubai with you in it
They say to plant your feet to keep yourself grounded
But if there's poison in your soil best you change your surroundings
Just cause you sink below the water doesn't mean that you drowning
I lost my mental long ago but pick a smile like I found it
This a love affair had to bring your cousins here
Aunties Aunts beware you're never safe when older brother's near
Mom and dad it's clear TD's sippin outta uncle's beer
Grandma in the kitchen yelling when you bringing misses here
You hate the questions though you know they sincere
No time for story but like magic you can make em appear
You catch a feel throw back a vibe but can't see past your career
Now take sec and catch your breath to find you living with fear you here

Would you believe I said I need you here
Cause as of late when shit feel good I usually disappear
When I'm the happiest it's odd I'm awful full of fear
I'm tryna steer you clear
But can't help sensing feeling end is near I reappear
Don't be confused it's rather insincere
I've been amused too many times around this time of year it's hard to feel
Like if we start to see us as a means to an end
I fight the feeling never finish what I mean to begin

I pray to god that you wake up in time
You notified as soon heaven drop a relish line
You say you fine as wine but can you look right inside
The people reaching for your hand tho you politely decline I feel you
But in the meantime it's fear on my mind
I'm in my bed dreaming dreadful help you need you can't find
I wanna lead you where it shine best believe I'm trying
I can't be lying feeling pain cause you clearly blind
Face reality this life won't cut it out for me
It's in my composition basically it's in my alchemy the one who got it out for me
Look in the mirror you can't see it any clearer
Know its you who hold you dearer
To the fear of the consequences of being the man
You on a path best not to veer you better stick to the plan
I'm in control you understand you know your wish my command
I give my all for lack of fear that you be taking my hand

These walls I could never seem to get around
I don't know if it was I who built them up
Or if they're simply a manifestation within my destination
I'm not too sure where I'll go to next
I just know it's best to speak up than to live with things left unsaid

Would you believe I said I need you here
Cause as of late when shit feel good I usually disappear
When I'm the happiest it's odd I'm awful full of fear
I'm tryna steer you clear
But can't help sensing feeling end is near I reappear
Don't be confused it's rather insincere
I've been amused too many times around this time of year it's hard to feel
Like if we start to see us as a means to an end
I fight the feeling never finish what I mean to begin