Eyelidz

Staring at the stars
Wondering which is highest
Our trues selves start to talk
When we're caught up in the silence
In that icebreaker space
I say I'm ready to try this
Then I wake up
In a existential crisis crisis crisis
We only exist
In the back of my eyelids eyelids eyelids
Then I wake up
In an existential crisis
We only exist
In the back of my

Swear we have the same eyes
In two different people
Swear you ran away from home
To live in my cerebral
Cuz I hugged you last night
You're head was shaved and blue
There's a face of tears on my pillow
And I'm asking it what to do
It said keep your head up please
You're suffocating me
But most importantly
Just take some time to breathe
I need melatonin
I can't sleep ya see
I keep having dreams
What it shoulda coulda woulda
But probably never be
My heart beats frantically
This feeling what can it be
My alarm went off
Before she could answer me
It always ends this way
Me staring into space
At another shooting star
Or cloud I'm trying to chase
I'm just tryna keep a pace
In this universe
I'm just tryna find my place
Thought it was in your arms
I guess thats not the case
And I can tell tonight
Is just another night I'll waste

Staring at the stars
Wondering which is highest
Our trues selves start to talk
When we're caught up in the silence
In that icebreaker space
I say I'm ready to try this
Then I wake up
In a existential crisis crisis crisis
We only exist
In the back of my eyelids eyelids eyelids
Then I wake up
In an existential crisis
We only exist
In the back of my

Remember those stars
During the summer
Laying in the grass
Kungfu panda 3 playing on the big screen
Starlight is traveling billions of lightyears, just fall into your eyes
I walked to that park from across town
Just to see you that night
Because we could always
Talk about stuff like that
You know things that are real
Real as in the context in which we exist
How we're as insignificant as a dustmite
Floating in the basement air
Of an endless mansion with infinite stories
Infinite rooms no walls no floor
No roof No rules
Life is just a giant complex masterpiece of Absolute insanity intestinty
And tenderly balanced beauty
Most people are blind to that
You were the first person I met that wasn't
And I'll know I'll have to move on
But until then

Do you mind of my mind
Has a mind of its own
And you're the only thing
My mind's mind's mind is on
And you're the only thing
My mind finds when I'm alone
When I'm with you
Its like time suddenly gone
And the day goes on and on
And nothing can be wrong
But it'd feel so right if tonight
You'd delight my sight
With that dress you wear
And that messy hair
That burns like a flare
In the back of my eyelids
When I catch you there
You're the best I swear
Someone no one would share
Thats why I stopped Wondering
What we could be
Between you and your boyfriend
There's no room for me
I know it sounds pathetic
Just forget I said it
We just had so much potential
That was never kinetic
So many places it would takes us
But we never would let it
And I'll never regret it
Bit when I try to forget it
Its already bedtime
And I slip into the back
Of the back of mind
And my dreams remind me
Of all the truth behind me
When I'm lost
This is where you can find me
Deep my subconscious
My repressed thoughts
Become obnoxious
My suppressed heart
Becomes so honest
About all this things
That I try to hide
In that empty space
That I have inside
Where I wear a mask
A mask of lies
Tryna hide it
But I can't disguise
The back of my eyelids