Endeavour

What you endeavour for
Peace in the mind and soul
What we endeavour for
In their eyes to be beautiful
What I endeavour for
Wanting to be you more
What I endeavour for
Keeping it real man, I do not know no more

I do not know no more
Whether the Kid was something I'm ready for
Feeling is mutual
Being a man is nothing but mutual
And maybe after all
My heart's been beating with nothing to feel at all
What once was my pinnacle
Thought kept me grounded till I really hit the floor
Ain't been here in a long time
Fell off the line, I'm offline
New common phrase is I'm fine
Don't worry, I'm fine,
Battles in my head I got scars
Let the blood translate to the bars
Like I just wanna be grateful man
But Lord, you're making this hard
Transparency showing purpose
Purpose gives something to work with
Respect out here I'm tryna earn it
But now I'm wondering if it's worth it
Just to get grace from people with no face
Cause really they smile, when really it's fake
And when they say great, really they're grating
Down every action, down to the fraction
Fraction I'm holding on
By a grip, can't let it slip, can't take a trip
Boy take your pick
Like I don't wanna fail
I don't wanna lose
I don't wanna miss
I just wanna know what more's left to give
Like I don't wanna miss my moment
World's telling me I gotta own it
Lord telling me just focus
Identity disorder

So what you endeavour for
Peace in the mind and soul
What we endeavour for
In their eyes to be beautiful
What I endeavour for
Wanting to be you more
What I endeavour for
Keeping it real man, I do not know no more

I want the endeavour though
Distractions a hundred though
Desert deserting my sanity
Miraging the highest highs and lowest of the lows
Pictures of mountaintops reflecting beauty and I need a close up
Pictures of me reflecting the wounds and I just need closure
This ain't surgery though
Shattering bones to carry the flow
Breaking my legs to ride the wave
I'm bleeding red in a vision of gray
I still know color won't erase the pain
But I'll sell my soul to sustain the pain
Lies flooding water inside of my veins
Drowning on feelings that make me insane
Like maybe when they come and see me
They'll see clearly
That they're meant to feel me
But they'd rather fear me
I know, I know
And lately I've been on a killing spree
The Kid the penicillin
Jekyll, Hyde, hero, villain
Who knows? Who knows
Going back to Gabe, clueless, I'm self made
Ideals overrated, quick poison, Kool-Aid
No I'm Gabriel, not Mum, but God named
Me, already labelled, I don't need your fame
Keep it coming
Heard the beat and my mind went running
I'm the Flash I'm the fastest gunning
So try catch me up to say something
Try catch me up to try and stop me
I saw them fail so I'm doing it properly
Never let their six strings rock me
Doesn't matter how much this costs me
Doesn't matter how much I'd lose
Cause I'd still bet that the Kid gets better
I'll endeavour
Yeah, we'll endeavour

So what I endeavour for
Being here after all
So what I endeavour for
Being here after all

What I endeavour for
What I endeavour for