Day 500 (Strength)

Picture me rolling my 93 down to Texas uh
Nothing in my pocket my momma say that i'm reckless but
I got a dream with two mouths to feed had to bless me up
Now they aint catching up
My flow hot like nebula
Im selling my dreams
Im not selling drugs
Im not a gangster or thug when i talk but always been ducking the cops
And bet that i did more time than you're telling us
Thats why i keep it low key
Its so necessary
My character build and kill fake dealers and bury
My appetite is unsatiated my power is hated
I gotta use it for good
Show the world its cool to be different
Be the light thats soothing the spirit
Call me the message uh
Better yet chef carter I calculate while we kill on command
Thats ty-c he's heaven sent all the struggle was relevant
Baby mama got cancer i pray that she get the medicine
Cant have my kids lose a parent like i did let that settle in
Whats even worse is she don't let me be a father
Swear to god she push me away so far i hate to be a bother
Picture growing up and swearing you wouldn't be just like your father
Man that pain it almost killed me but that pain it made me stronger I have the
Strength to forgive you i don't expect you to give me back all the
Strength to continue you made a choice you cant have me back but the
Strength you possess makes you a powerful mother you have the
Strength and i seen it and for that reason I love you

One death is One birth is One life is another light
It dont matter where we go once we are gone
It only matter what we do while we are here

One love is One heart is One soul is One mic
Ill be doing this right here until i'm gone
Don't take for granted what you have while you are here

I love you mama
Everything'll be ok
Id like to take a moment of silence for all my friends and family that have passed in the recent years
Rest in peace CJ, Camden
I know sometimes it feels like we don't have the strength to keep going
Or the will to keep growing
But remember when the darkness shines the light is behind
Keep your head high and fight
Ill be by your side always
One love

I swear to god I been down but I found the strength to get up
Gotta keep it moving no matter it must be CJ and Camden
The power inside of them smacked me told me wake the fuck up
You got some kids that don't know you, you have a life and we don't
Do you think we made this decision? Do think we chose how we died
You gon sit there and keep drinking? and keep on crying over a girl
There's millions out there how bout you pay the attention to the woman who birthed your children
Instead you been smoking and drinking and breaking everyone's hearts
Shit, that's a powerful message, thank you
I'll never forget you, it's purple dreams till infinity
The trauma I went through, almost killed me I plummet
All the booze that I went through, half of you couldn't stomach
This song ain't meant for the normal, that's why it shine on the b-side
My eyes luminary that's why my pain sitting knee high
But we been here before, so it's time we lock the doors
My destiny islands; my pain, my nuence is pure
It's time I let myself heal instead of let myself grieve
And wonder what coulda been, I should be focused on me
But then I feel the guilt, must be survivors guilt
Why the fuck they didn't take me? what's so special bout me
I know you want me to thrive but it's hard to breathe
I'm trying to set an example, but all I've done is I drink
My walls are skyscraper high, but I hear em crashing down
For the first time I can feel, I finally getting it now
It's been about 400 days, my hearts been going through change
Instead of me in control I'll give control of my reigns
The powers higher than me, I'll let myself understand it
There's beauty in struggle, you gave me strength and I'll brand it
Inside the ties of my soul my silence no longer demanded
Im a product of gold no more steel strapped on my lanyard
That's the weight of the world, used to feel but now I handle
So I thank you I managed to escape without tragedy
That's strength