Depression

I've got depression, and it's with me forever
So never, ever, ever can I escape into happiness
There's just so much stress, so much doubt
So much anger that I cannot control my mouth
I had it all my life, and it continues to persist
As much as I try to get past this
It's always stuck to me like a shadow
All the feelings it entows, and yes I know
The feeling all too well, self-doubt, lack of interest
Somedays I sleep all day in my bed
Just hoping I can wake up one day without depression
But I always learn my lesson because it's always there
And I'm scared because it keeps controlling my life
This ain't right, I wish I could see the light
But it's dim, not bright so I guess I'll never see
Because I'm so unstable, what is wrong with me?

Depression, depression, it's inside me
Always hiding in plain sight, I can't escape
Makes me feel like I'm not great
Makes me feel like I'm a disgrace
Depression, depression, it's inside me
Always hiding in plain sight, I can't escape
Fuels my anger and my hate
Makes me wonder what it's going to take
To beat this

I think that entertainment is a waste of time
When it doesn't release endorphins in my mind
That helps fight the depression that's deep inside
Why do I have to hide? I want to show who I am
But alas, I drive all the people away
With my depression, what do I have to say?
When the feelings just linger in your head
And those feelings make you wish you were dead
You're isolated, but not by choice
They can tell who you are by the sound of your voice
Always angry, sad, mad, whatever they call it
A cure for depression would be my only wish
So I can take it, have all my problems go poof
But alas it's a dream, so what can I do?
To even manage, because right now it's hard
Always being down because of who you are

Depression, depression, it's inside me
Always hiding in plain sight, I can't escape
Makes me feel like I'm not great
Makes me feel like I'm a disgrace
Depression, depression, it's inside me
Always hiding in plain sight, I can't escape
Fuels my anger and my hate
Makes me wonder what it's going to take
To beat this

It's like the devil's inside me and I spend time with it
Everyday, and I shrug because it always exists
I don't like doing this as much as the next man
I can't even overcome, I feel like I'm trapped in Iceland
Always stuck there for the rest of my days
Watching while they take everything away
Even though I had nothing in the first place
It's hard being a disgrace while I'm holding back tears
My career is my hobby that keeps me going
But I feel like my depression is holding me back
Never allowing me to fully get a grasp
On my skill, I feel like I'm gasping for air
I'm dead inside, feel like a zombie
Walking nowhere with no emotion inside me
Depression's burning me out, like there's nowhere to go
And I feel like I've lost all control, and I'm gone.

Depression, depression, it's inside me
Always hiding in plain sight, I can't escape
Makes me feel like I'm not great
Makes me feel like I'm a disgrace
Depression, depression, it's inside me
Always hiding in plain sight, I can't escape
Fuels my anger and my hate
Makes me wonder what it's going to take
To beat this