Do You Love Me?

Hooray
I got out of bed today
Most days, can't get out my head, most days
Today, will not be like all of those days
Be brave, just think of her smiling face

I fall, back into my shell again
Grown men, have never had none depend
On them, they never had zero friends
Because, of bad energy they send

If I only self harm then why don't I drink
If I only self harm then why don't I smoke
So self conscious why do I care what you think
Hurt years of fake confidence I'm just a joke

I can not let you go
I can not let you go
I can not let you go
I can not let you go

I looked in the mirror and asked it
Do you love me
And it asked me back
Aren't you proud of me

No, I am not proud anymore
These songs, are killing my brain, they're chores
Of course, I want all my old friends back
I attacked, I can not take those things back

Nobody warned me that I'd visit heaven
Thirty one of us, peak human connection
Love and affection in every direction
Thirty are gone now, they maintained ascension

This music would not exist if I knew then
That the love I felt did not have to see end
I can't help but keep thinking back to that night
The love that I felt to this day makes me cry

I guess I wasted my entire life
All the signs pointed left so I went right
You know what they say about hindsight
Take all that I've learned and get on one way flight

I do not let me grow
I will not let you know
I can not let you go
Then I'll be all alone

I asked the mirror again
Do you love me
Only silence