Blades

Tell me what I'm supposed to do, couldn't have imagine living without you
But here we are and we're here to stay, heartbreak is a cold slap on the face
Oh God please tell me what I should do, I don't think I can keep living without you
Oh God please tell me what I can do, I can't live anymore girl, without you

Do you remember when I whispered those words
A desperate cry for help you left me on heard
Did you think I didn't mean it 'cause I swear I really did
Not sure why you left me hanging almost jumped right off a bridge
Sure if you want me to I'll act like I don't care
When you find another man I hope you're happier I swear
But really I'm lost and your touch came at a cost
And I might just be better off dead (Woah)
I love you I said on a warm summer night
Then you went silent I could tell you weren't alright
But neither was I, I wanted to fucking die
But I couldn't let go of you so I had to lie
Do you remember breaking up you couldn't look me in the eyes
The next night right after, yeah that was my demise
Remember spin the bottle remember when we sang riptide
Little did I know in a week that I would have to fly
Do you remember when we prayed, do you remember what I'd say
God if it's meant to be, Lord please find us a way
Then I had to leave, and that was all on me
And when I came back home, I still couldn't let you go
I remember looking up with you saying wishes to sky
Thinking in a week or two that I would have to fly
Do you remember our first kiss, sometimes I still reminisce
We were in the roots village waiting for the script to flip
The girl of my dreams was laying next to me
I gave you a big hug, you laid there and stared at me
Thinking of you now girl, still makes me want to cry
I love my new girl, but part of my heart died
Do you remember laying down, I said I'll queen you stick around
Remember just watch, making lyrics about money that wasn't found
I started this whole music thing, I'm going to see it through
But the only reason I started, was because I wanted to be with you
Do you remember the last words I said the grass it was long and green
I said girl there are no words to describe what you mean to me
I never let that go and inside, I never stopped crying
Since the last time was with you, inside I began dying
Do you remember despair as I looked you in the eyes
I turned to Em and Loíc then I broke down and cried
Haven't felt the same since that night at 4 am
Our very last kiss girl in denial twas the end

In the deepest, darkest hour of this never ending life
While I'm sitting in a bathtub with blades sharper than a knife
Now they're soaking in my wrist, I sob 'cause I can't resist
As I push a little further, and I start to clench my fist
I can feel it all ending, it all falling apart
I feel the urge to get deeper as I try to hit restart
Bro, I found this picture of me and you when we weren't tall
Back when the decks stacked against us had our backs against the wall

Yeah I'm still in denial

And I'm still figuring it out

But thats okay

I love you