Heavy Hearted

I'm scared of myself
Pulling on my thoughts
Got me tearing up my health
I'm too aware of myself
I'm embarrassed
Of myself
Taught my lil' sister
To only care about herself
Fuck everybody else
And the vanity a reflection
Of my teachings
Only think about myself
On these fine evenings
Can't be her father
What the fuck was I thinking
(She) only wants a lil' time
But I'm sleep
In the other room
And she wants her brother back
She wants her mother back
She could give a fuck
What I say on a 100 tracks
And in these fucking shows
Chasing these lil' hoes
Tell her I got to go
I want to be alone

I got to get my mind right
I can't define right
Or wrong
Sinking all my lifelines
In these songs
Won't last long

One day stop fighting
But today is not that day
One day I'll meet a god
And he'll have a price to pay
I'll never fade away
I'll never fade away
I know my fate
And I'ma be your favorite nigga
I'ma do what it takes
No matter what

I choose to be alone
So I can bitch about it later
I need to find productive ways
To channel all this anger
It's seeping out
In conversation
Everybody's stressed
Every syllable I utter
Got me seeing their regrets
For ever bringing up the topic
For being opposition
I'm going for destruction
I'm talking
I'm not listening
Dissident to the same voices
That I'm belittling
Fuck the other side
Was never concerned with fitting in
Words burn every bridge
That I'm visiting
Its blistering
On your skin and shit
I hope you listening
If your spirits strong
Then you tripping
& it's crippling
Throw you in the back
While they fill you up
With Ritalin
And then you fucking snap
Like they ain't see you dwindling
Gaslight ya mind *blink*
Then they virtue signaling
Get it?
Yeah

Witness your conditioning
Inhibiting your dissonance
That's discipline
Involuntary participant
To your own limiting
Fuck lemonade
Ask why life gave you lemons then
Bitch

And I hate everything
Cause everything fucking sucks
I hate everything
I feel like I'm about to erupt
I hate everything
Surrounded by everyone
I still feel alone
I don't relate to anyone
I won't fucking change
Cause I can't fucking change
I won't fucking change
Cause I can't fucking change
I won't fucking change
Cause I can't fucking change
I won't fucking change
Cause I can't...

I'm heavy hearted
Got to get my...
Mind right
Yeah
I'm heavy hearted
Heart on my sleeve
Dearly departed
Mind right
Yeah
Life is unstable
Woah



Credits
Writer(s): Andrew Milburn
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