Losing My Grip

LOSING MY GRIP

I'm a fish caught on a hook
A role in someone else's book
Swimming blindly up a stream
In someone else's dream, it seems
Where did my free will go
I suppose I'll never know
All the possibilities for me
When a glimmer comes in sight
It's overtaken by the night
And I lose my grip on reality

I'm in a car I can't control
Stuck in this flesh without a soul
Voices in my head
Telling me my hopes are dead and gone
I'm not able to explain
Thoughts that flicker in my brain
So I pretend I'm really not alone
But the warmth soon disappears
And I surrender as my fears
Undo my grip and chill me to the bone

A familiar face floats in front of me
But I can't recall their true identity
The rhythm of a voice soothes me
While digging through my mind
It draws me way back through time and place
To all those buried things that I don't want to face
So many troubling things that I'd rather have left behind

Bound and gagged and hooded on a chair
Lights burn bright there's danger in the air
The needle punctures skin
Will the answers deep within begin
Understanding all the pain
Lifts me to another plane
The truth arrives and opens up my mind
I see the dark despair
In all the people everywhere
Who grip on things that are better left behind

Heaven help me when at last they find
That seething black hole locked beneath my mind
I suppressed it long ago when I was just a child
Before it I was shining bright
But then I was plunged into the night
Crouched in a corner from my fears that were running wild