Listen If You Will

I hate that you could never be who I needed you to be
It's crazy how it seems that you couldn't see
What's in front of you, don't you know it's me
Waiting for you to take notice of someone who loves you? Do we
Just move on?
Some say just keep calm and carry on
But it just feels like I'm buried gone
And I just can't find the mask I want
So I'm always searching through the luggage of someone
Who's lost his way, out of place
With the other kids he wouldn't play
Because he doesn't know what normal is
All will have examples but will still say that it's relative
Tell me, does that mean that I'm as normal as it gets
I don't know so let's move on before I forget
What the point of all of this is
I guess my question is
Do you really know me? Or have I been
Too closed off, pull my cuffs
I never seem to say enough
Or if I do I'm saying too much
I feel so out of touch

And I know that if I don't know where to go
I can follow all the prints left in the snow
I don't know
If I'm running round in circles
Into hurdles
My blood curdles
As I stare
Into the ripples
Of my life inside this bottle

Yeah, I wonder how much longer
It will take for me to offer
All the thoughts inside my head that make me stronger
Left me bothered
Just remember: I'm not the man who walked on water
I am just a man they called a liar
Staring in a mirror and I can't tell who this stranger is
Reflection shattered beyond recognition this
Is giving too much information out about me
Just like giving you a weapon that can kill me
And I ask that you don't use it
You don't know how much I fear it
If it's being used against me
I think that it would be
Because of the things that happened in my past
Always hoping I would be the one that's laughing last
What do you know?
I'm always fighting battles on my own
Thinking that I'm strong enough
To always overcome
All the doubts that I can't face
I wish that I had more faith
In those who wanna save me from my chosen fate

And I know that if I don't know where to go
I can follow all the prints left in the snow
I don't know
If I'm running round in circles
Into hurdles
My blood curdles
As I stare
Into the ripples
Of my life inside this bottle

Have I said enough?
Give me a minute to wrap this up
Oh, listen if you will
To the story that I tell
And I hope you know that what I say is real
I've been searching for a sense of direction
But without the motivation, I'm just blind in desperation
But if I know where I can find it
I might be scared to chase it, I can't decide if
I should hide it
Regardless, I keep pushing on
Keep pushing on until I prove you wrong
Can I prove you wrong?
Listen to these words
Reflecting my innocence in a hearse
What is worse? Yeah, what is worse?
Writing my thoughts down for an empty void
Or being heard by some crazy people trying to avoid
Solving problems? I can't solve em
Do we leave or do we follow
Time to find an answer? Well, we don't wanna

Cuz we know that if we don't know where to go
We can follow all the prints left in the snow
We don't know
If we're running round in circles
Into hurdles
Our blood curdles
As we stare
Into the ripples
Of our lives inside these bottles