April Showers

Is this really God's plan
Yeah I'm blessed but did I slip through God's hands
Insecurity and the cure is in demand
But the cure costs currency many can't spend
Trust faith love money
Just to name a few sacrifice em all for me
Is it really God's plan to get the house with a view
2 kids and a pool then it's all good for me
I used to never trip on it
Now I see the world cold as black ice did I slip on it
Something on the rocks while I sip on it
And I don't like to sip so I sit still
Wondering if this pill will get the job done homie
Praying up to God's son only I don't always trust if He God's son
And the devil knows this so he still focusing on me

Bear with me I'm barely breathing
Demons creeping deeper defense depleted
Jump the fence and seizing souls they're seeking
Sold at face value the gold is evil God's plan
Can we see that now
Long pause when you ask if I believe that now
Facts only I don't own me only He knows how

For all my friends going through it
Know you're not alone empathy breeds in music
9 to 5 life 5 to 9 we abuse it
Knowing we're all out here struggling not to lose it
Just a call away in case you need an ear
Relationship's a weapon to defeat the fear
Build each other up don't be scared of tears
Understand I'm here in case you need someone to keep it real
Far from perfect but perfectly far away
Penny for your thoughts I'll get 'em the harder way if I have to
Look that's for my old school heads
New school white vans like some old school feds
Used to night stands with a Bible and pen
Writing this to my friends just hoping you understand
You are never alone even in your darkest sin
Praying for you all 'til we speak again

I'm here with you barely breathing
Demons creeping deeper defense depleted
Jump the fence and seizing souls they're seeking
Sold at face value the gold is evil God's plan
How can we believe that now
Devil smiling how the hell can we not frown
Still standing but how long til we knocked down

Mom you done made my life amazing
I just hope I bring the favor back around
Dad you done made my life amazing
I just hope that I can bring the favor back around
Maybe trips to Dublin once a year
Apparently they're telling me my vacation doubles in a year
Now I'd like to celebrate
Getting Nilla Wafers with Nutella spread
Skip the bubbly recently my stomach reappears
3 or 4 beers deep
And it makes sleep worse
So I'm pretty much leaving it be honestly it could be worse
Really I've been missing you both growing up hurts
And we're closer than most so
I think we both know
How much it could really hurt when you both go
If you get sick or just miss your son
I'll be there with you sharing moons and suns