Void

Trying to figure out how to express myself
Like... an outlet to keep myself from backsliding like I usually do
It's hard trying to do that nowadays
Especially when confidential information is used against you

You want to be open but everything around you pushing you to remain closed
Mislead by words and oblivious to the jawing actions that present signals of departure
You're mainly focused on filling a void rather than paying attention to the health of a connection
Sometimes an absence helps you realize what you don't need

We all want that one person that we can go to, to decompress
It's normal for the human to want that but what about if we find that within ourselves
Looking to another person as an addition to your already solid self-understanding
That's what I had to do personally

Fully love who I am and listen to my own advice
I had to take a step back and reevaluate myself in order to keep myself sane
Instead of trying to find others to fill a void
I had to avoid certain red flags in order to fill myself up with my own affirmations

Instead of looking for acceptance of others I had to learn to accept myself
I had to piece together who I was before I could showcase my true masterpiece
I had to walk through mazes to understand many different things about myself
Work I had to put in, I had to separate myself from the world in order to establish mine

I've grown so much into something far greater than what I was a couple of months ago
I was broken and saddened by my circumstances but I've prevailed and turned that sadness into motivation
I was built for many things and life is one of them
I'm ready to see where I can go