In the Clouds

I been on that denial
Ever since I was a wee child
Did my best to shield my ego
No script so I freestyled
No clue what to do so I shot from the hip
Wounded pretty early so I walked with a limp
Poker face due to the cards I was dealt
Didn't wanna be soft so I fabricated how I felt
Honesty seemed weak to me
Fake it to ya make it what they preached to me
Whether through they actions or verbally
It was clear to see, I couldn't be me

I been in the clouds
I been in the clouds for a long time
And I don't want to come back down
Maybe I can float over all this pain
All this pain, all this pain
Maybe I can float over all this pain
All this pain, baby all this pain
I just want to float over all this pain

So I tried to shove my pain down
Insecure with a fake smile
Did my best to impress them
Wanted so bad to be accepted (Rejection)
Maybe if I make some racket, McEnroe
Tennis shoes brand name up my fashion yo
Seem to capture some attention when my jacket dope
But that only last as long as a cloud of smoke
So I started gettin' high so I could stay in the clouds
Above the rain ain't no shame when you can't feel it now
To maintain this state of mind gotta up what I down
So am I really up or down? I just woke up on the ground?

I been in the clouds
I been in the clouds for a long time
And I don't want to come back down
Maybe I can float over all this pain
All this pain, all this pain
Maybe I can float over all this pain
All this pain, baby all this pain
I just want to float over all this pain

As far back as I remember I was searchin' for something
See something deep in my person it wasn't right I was hurtin'
I couldn't put my finger on it see uh I was just a child
So I started chasin' anything that would catch me a smile
But every effort I made left me empty and hopeless
I couldn't manage the pain so I made it vanish like hocus pocus
But the magic found in liquor, and the magic found in drugs
Plus those promiscuous nights it wasn't addin' up