Therapy

I think I really need to tell you how I feel 'bout you
I press my head against the floor and then I pray 'bout you
Dear God just take this pain away, cause I ain't shit without you
I tell myself it's better days but that don't make it cool
I don't even gotta see you cry to know you feel pain too
And don't you try to hide the pain, cause it's gone change you
You just a slave to your emotions
Out my body but I'm awake just floatin'
Sometimes I can visualize myself dying
Tears down my face, I break out crying
When I'm alone in my room, I cry in silence
I wanna tell you how I feel, just let me find it
I know it's deep down in my heart, I know its hiding
Baby, you can even ask God, he know I trying
Just let me get my thoughts together, free my mind, yeah
I know real niggas always cry in silence

I can't forget about that trip we took to Cali
You always tried to buy me things to keep me smiling
You wanted to buy me the MCM belt and surprise me
You even made me walk outside so you can buy it
We was just living our best life and we was vibing
If anything would of got sticky, you would slide in
I couldn't never seen this shit frightening
How we could go from screaming "I love you", to just silence
I can't forget about that trip we took to Flordia
Yeah we rented out that big ass crib and we slept in the big room
Your little brother looked up to me, that was my lil dude
And we was flying around the world, making big moves
We took a shot to make it big all over YouTube
So I don't really know why you played like that
I would have never thought you'd bring me pain like that
You got me feeling fucked up the way you changed like that
I really tried to keep my cool and I just wanted to snap
And yeah, you told me the truth, but that don't change the fact
That you done really broke our trust, why'd you do me like that?
And we had the best love, that shit felt like crack
You wish that we can rewind and take that moment back
Now my heart is split into fractions
I take my mind off you, cut out distractions
And I feel the things I say, I ain't just rappin'
Emotions feelin' caged up, feel like you trapped me
(Like you trapped me, trapped me, trapped me)
(Emotions feelin' caged up, feel like you trapped me)

But at the same time it's cool, cause I ain't have to find out
Opened up and told the truth, that's why I kept you around
And know that you can hit my line even though I'm not around
And even on the FaceTime, I feel you crying through your smile
Feel you crying through your smile
Sometimes I think about taking you back
But that just makes me think I'm way too attached
We fell inlove but you just made me fall back
I'm out my mind I can't think about the past

I just guess we outta luck
I'ma keep it real I've had enough
You swore to God you wasn't cheatin', you was bluffin'
I didn't listen when I felt you was up to something
I tried to put that shit aside and keep on trusting
Don't know if I can love again, I'm left with nothing
I'm scared to let somebody in, that shit exhausting
I'm moving on, I got this friend, but we just talking
Can't wait to get back to my old self, I was poppin'
I just been working on myself, issa lil harder
And I know you gone feel your pain when you hear this
This ain't no message to you, I'm just here to pour out my feelings
I put this shit into a song, it's like my therapist
And since I left your ass alone, I know you're feeling it
I took these words out my heart and my spirit
I hope I never get caught again, Lord just spare me