Tired

Yeah, uh
Lately I've been tryna cope
I always do it alone
I just suffer on my own
Still going through highs and lows
Feels like I've been here before
Sometimes I just wanna post what I have been feelin'
But I have the feelin' if somebody knows
They'll use it against me, I'm used to the envy
They're good at pretendin' they don't

My thoughts are reflections of what I'm suppressin'
Me tryna correct it is needed the most
I'm counting my blessings through my perception
I can't see the lesson that God's tryna show
I recently check in a therapy session to ease the depression
I'm tryna let go
My life has distressed and I feel disconnected
I keep second guessing the path that I chose

It blows, to manifest everything that I ever wanted
It feels so dismissing
Why does my happiness come to a crash
And then I'm the one whose caught in the collision?
When I get emotional I sabotage myself
By making these impulsive decisions
I feel like everybody's out to get me
The trauma I've been through's keeping defensive

I don't know why I never open up
There's a door to me that I'm closing shut
I'm mentally numb, I just wanna run
I love and hate the person I've become
I love me for makin' it on my own
But hate me 'cause I celebrate alone
I'm a sore winner, I already know
I don't wanna rap, I think I'ma fold

I feel isolated no family or friends
I honestly feel like I've reached a dead-end
I've been tryna be optimistic but
Loneliness is still a feeling that's wearing me thin
Where is the old me, where have I been?
I'm searching but I no longer exist
I always lose me, I find me again
But not now 'cause I don't know if I can, damn

I'm just tired of feeling low, you know?
I just don't know what it is, it's just like

Tired of feeling low
Tired of feeling low (low)
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I'm tired, damn

Tired of feeling low
Tired of feeling low (low)
Tired of feeling low
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Tired of feeling low
Tired of feeling low (low)
Tired of feeling low
I'm tired, damn

I'm tired of waking up feeling this way, oh
I'm tired, I'm tired

Tired of feeling low
Tired of feeling low (low)
Tired of feeling low
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Tired of feeling low
Tired of feeling low (low)
Tired of feeling low
I'm tired, damn

I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired
I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired
I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired
I'm tired