Despondency

I can see the flickering of the street lights
In time with the switch in my attitude
Forever still chasing a change in my shitty point of view
Lost in translation, my tongue is splitting at the seams
If I sit here long enough, maybe I'll figure what it means

Don't look now, the time is ticking down
Seconds to seeing how close I come to a breakdown

My mind stays darker still, overpowering my will
To make my escape or try to find my place
The alarms on my phone keep ringing on and on
Don't think I'll make it out of bed today

And when I tell myself it'll all be fine
It's not real, it's in my mind
I know I won't believe it
If there's a light, I just can't see it

So far down, my lungs fill till I drown
Weighed down in waves of these waters, under these gray clouds

My mind stays darker still, overpowering my will
To make my escape or try to find my place
The alarms on my phone keep ringing on and on
Don't think I'll make it out of bed today

Empty inside

And when I tell myself it'll all be fine
It's not real, it's in my mind
I know I won't believe it
If there's a light I just can't see it

Empty inside