Pain (Demo)

Uh
Listen
Dreaming of lust
I'm thinking of pain
Imagine these thoughts
Running right through my brain
I gave you my heart
You thew it away
You fucked up my trust
Now I won't be the same
You was my queen
Then everything changed
Swore you weren't leaving
You knew you was playing
I knew that you cheated
So why did I stay
Had my own reasons
But I guess I'm a game
All of our dreams
You flushed them away
So all of my demons
Wrote down on this page
All of your reasons
They don't mean a thing
Cause you never cared
You was stuck on the string

Too many days
You was down on that binge
Too many bottles
I'm lost in again
Too many sorrows
Can't talk about them
I got too many problems
I hold deep within
Yet all of these problems
I hide from my kin
Cause I love them too much
I can't put that on them
Downing these bottles
One hundred proof gin
Man I'm sipping on Bombay
I don't need no friends

Why do I deal wit this pain
Why do I feel so much hate
Why do I carry this weight
On my shoulders
Sometimes I do question my faith
Uh
Reload my bullets
I'm gripping the grain
Grabbing the steel
Like this bitch wasn't stained
Peep out the window
It's a beautiful day
But inside my mind
It's so cloudy and gray
Cock back the hammer
I'm losing my faith
Tense up my fingers
I'm seconds away
Hoping that someone come stop me, I pray
And then empty this clip in my brain wit this pain
Yeah
Yeah
Aye
Yeah
Cock back the hammer
I'm losing my faith
Tense up my finger
I'm seconds away
Yeah
Listen

Aye
Addicted to lust
Because loves not the same
Smoke a few blunts
Just to numb all my pain
I'm dealing with demons
Inside of my brain
Man I'm losing myself
In this miserable game
You were my dream
I threw you away
You're more like a demon
Or an angel of pain
You were my peace
Sunlight in the rain
But you was just leaching
The love out my brain
All of my dreams
Are now leaving the bank
All of them demons
I washed out my brain
All of these reasons
Just pushed you away
Because I always cared
But never again
Too many days
I was lost from within
Too many bottles
I'm down on that binge
Too many sorrows
I'm drinking again
I got too many problems
Don't sit and pretend
Inside my mind
Over and over again
That shit is on repeat
Got me on the edge
6 feet away
Only me and my pen
These thoughts just keep flowing I need me a friend

Why do I deal wit this pain
Why do I feel so much hate
Why do I carry this weight
On my shoulders
Sometimes I do question my faith
Uh
Reload my bullets
I'm gripping the grain
Grabbing the steel
Like this bitch wasn't stained
Peep out the window
It's a beautiful day
But inside my mind
It's so cloudy and gray
Cock back the hammer
I'm losing my faith
Tense up my fingers
I'm seconds away
Hoping that someone come stop me, I pray
And then empty this clip in my brain wit this pain
Yeah
Yeah
Aye
Yeah
Cock back the hammer
I'm losing my faith
Tense up my finger
I'm seconds away
Yeah

Aye
Fuck all the lust
Fuck all this pain
And fuck all these thoughts
That been drilled in my brain
Fuck all the love
And fuck all the snakes
And Fuck this addiction
To this pitiful game
Tell me I'm heartless
I don't give a fuck
Fuck anybody
That gets in my way
And if you rock wit me
Than throw that shit up
Cuz this how it feel
When you down on your luck

Reload my bullets
I'm gripping the grain
Grabbing the steel
Like this bitch wasn't stained
Peep out the window
It's a beautiful day
But inside my mind
It's so cloudy and gray
Cock back the hammer
I'm losing my faith
Tense up my fingers
I'm seconds away
Hoping that someone come stop me, I pray
And then empty this clip in my brain wit this pain
Yeah
Yeah
Aye
Yeah
Cock back the hammer
I'm losing my faith
Tense up my finger
I'm seconds away
Hoping that someone come stop me, I pray
And then
Click