Insomniac

I don't wanna go to sleep
Cause I'm afraid of my dreams
They are out to get me
And I cannot break free

Day to day live in a cloud of depression
Always fighting all my demons
Got me feeling like I'm stressing
When I go to sleep
Get attacked by my dreams
I wake up in agony
Like something's messing with me
Then I realize I'm alone
No one hitting up my phone
Then I look at what time it is
I'm getting really tired of this
It's driving me crazy
Some one come and save me
This is so repetitive
Just let me have my sedatives
So I can be numb for awhile
I can put the pain on idle
And nobody ever stays
Cause the feelings fade away
And I think too much
Those thoughts become my crutch
Can someone come in clutch
I apologize too much
Don't wanna hold a grudge
Feeling like I'm being judged
I don't know what's next
Feel the pain inside my chest

I can't even sleep at night
I cannot do anything right
Yeah I cannot sleep at night
And I can't do anything right

At a dead end
Watching the money I spend
Enough's enough right
No that's not the case with me
Cause my pain is sealed tight
Yeah nobody needs to see
Everything I hide inside
I feel the pain I wonder why
Look at times I could've died
I kept asking you why
Just kill me already
Yeah the world is getting heavy
Yeah I'm surviving but barley
I get treated unfairly
I can't get ahead
I just want to stay in bed

I don't wanna go to sleep
Cause I'm afraid of my dreams
They are out to get me
And I cannot break free

Take one step forward take five steps back
Just cut me some slack
There's something to live for
If you find it come knock on my door
I don't know anymore
Everyday feels like a chore
I just need to get back to sleep
Cause living ain't cheap
I'm insomniac
Constantly under attack
I just wanna be me again
Wanna be free again
Wanna laugh and smile yeah I just wanna feel again
I just wanna have a love that I can say is real again
But times are getting hard
Yeah these times are getting rough
I can't ever trust nobody
I'm too scared to fall in love
That's why I'm insomniac
That's why my thoughts are getting wack
I showed you I cared, gave you my heart, I cannot take it back

I don't wanna go to sleep
Can't shake this PTSD
Why is this happening?



Credits
Writer(s): Stacy Politte
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