The Rise and Fall of the Gang

I don't want to feel this way but I can't help it if I don't get paid
And the lack of food is making me feel strange
I ain't got no money but a fist full of change
So I put six shots in change and head out the door
No one's gonna force me to feel this poor
I'm in the shadows of notting hill
i got mouths to feed and bills
I'm feeling deranged something's gotta be changed
It's either you son, or it's me
I'm sorry that this is how it's gotta be
I know it's yours and I know it's flash
But this is the only way I get cash
It ain't nice and it ain't fun
just make it easy and it'll be done
Now I got the cash I stopped feeling bad
this is the most amount of money I've ever had
I need more I can't stop
So I start thinking about rolling on a whole damn shop
We get the car we get the gang
and we head all the way out to Buckingham
We walk inside and raise the barrel
Hand it over boss I say with a smile
I'm feeling deranged something's gone and been changed
The old bill's here
I'm racked with fear now i'm 18 looking at 20 years
Now I'm out on the street and I'm doing the dash
And I didn't even manage to get any cash
I'm thinking about my mum and what she'll say
All I wanted was to get some pay
I wanted a watch but I got some bracelets
my whole damn life is fucking wasted
But what choice did I ever have
There was no way I was gonna be an art school grad
Never had a choice but I took it wrong
I know deep down I shouldn't have gone
But I was hungry and I was young
i had no education but a loaded gun
I'm feeling deranged my whole life is strange
It'll never be the same again
My whole life down the fucking drain