Fly Away Breakthrough

Pain all in my veins
Pain all in my veins
Why it gotta be so hard
Why it gotta be so hard
Why it gotta be so hard
Why it gotta be so hard
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
Somewhere far away
Somewhere far away
Somewhere far away
Somewhere far away
The devil tryna hold me back
I can't handle these attacks
100 scars on my back
That's a fact
I just wanna fly away
I just wanna fly away
Somewhere far away
Somewhere far away
Reminisce
Reminisce
Bad thoughts in my mind
Contemplating bout suicid
Cuz man this life get hard
But I aint ready for a suit and tie
Lately I been in my bag
In my feelings feeling sad
Dibble dabbing in the past
Add it up and do the math
Cuz Sunday morning I'm praising
Monday night I'm swaying
Tuesday come I'm changing
Watching videos X-Rated
Ever since I was eight man
Life never been the same man
I cant deal with guilt
I just wanna hurt myself wanna hurt myself wanna hurt myself
Put the match to my body wanna burn myself
I just wanna disappear make it clear to a new year cuz I feel like I cursed myself
God I ain't tryna be funny
I don't even know why you love me
This getting sick to my stomach
I'm on my bending knee
Lord help me please
All my shame and all my guilt Lord this is killing me
Bury this addiction please before it bury me
There's a small voice in my head telling me I am free
Its hard to believe that I'm free
I don't believe that I'm free
Then why would you die for me
If you know inside of me would turn away from your decrees
I cant no I cant believe it
That you want me back in Eden
My heart is playing the defense
It is so hard to receive it because
I'm scared, of what it may cost me
Of getting that phone call at two in the morning
Crying that somebody died
Can't you tell by the look on my eyes
That I'm scared
Scared to give it my all
I know the ending to this story I seen this before
Cuz every time I'm in the summer next season I fall aww man
I'm scared, scared to live scared to die scared to move scared to lose
Scared to lose it all for my faith
Weaker than dry bones my faith it might break
Giving myself away, how much you want me to take
Scared to give up pornography
Scared that I might feel empty inside of me
This is all I know this is all I know to feel good
Naked women the images making me feel good
But not for long, cuz while I'm thinking bout a woman taking off her bra
My girl dreaming that I'm cheating now she insecure
She's buying lies for the low
How we gonna make it right if I keep lying on the low
I'm afraid that you gon tell me now it's time to let it go let it go let it go
I'm scared, Im scared
Only 22 and I live on my own now
It's been two years and I'm feeling alone now
Cooped up in this room got me missing my home now
I just wanna throw skates on and roll bounce
Midnight's anxiety knock on the door on my mind
Lost some people now I'm anxious that it's close to my time
If I had one wish I would I could fly
From all of this pain and all of this doubt and all of my hurt and all of my wrongs
I surrender Lord
I surrender Lord
I surrender Lord
And the Lord replies
And the Lord replies
Wait
Don't forget what I done for you
When you was still a sinner I gave up my only Son for you
Hung on the cross for you
Pierced lungs covered the blood on you
Wait
Now you just gotta live it
Leave the mistakes behind you I meant it when it was finished
So when they see you now and asking how you living
You tell them
I'm on a breakthrough
I'm on a breakthrough
I'm on a breakthrough
I'm on a breakthrough
I'm on a breakthrough
I'm on a breakthrough
I'm on a breakthrough