Green Light

Always want what I can't have
Always have what I don't want
It's a cycle
Why I sing all the same songs
Why I write 'bout the wrong wrongs
Fight for the wrong cause
Cause I'm not the bright bulb to brighten up ya dark day
It's the reason in part why I like to part ways
With everybody who wanna impart pain to me
I said it's a cycle
Grip the mic like Michael
Spiteful of what my life holds
A sore sight full of lightless eyeholes and "What do I know"s
I made a living outta living in denial
Of all the old kids telling me to ride slow
Read ya bible, ignore desires
Cause every day's born warm but it dies cold
So what
Regardless, I
Stuff my mouth with the kool-aid powder
Don't know how, but it makes me prouder
Than if I led a life so bland
I'm waiting for my self-promised land
I understand it's something that ain't guaranteed
Ain't nothing scaring me; 'fact, I'm very relaxed
Bliss is ignorance, and in this case, being convinced that my wildest dreams ain't distant

Controlling
Elusive, I lose all
Yeah
Control of, the present, I loosen, up

Always get what I can't keep
Always keep what I shouldn't have gotten in the first place
Like a little kid tryna get to first base
So obsessed, not with a chest, but with the surface
Of what I'll never fully understand
I see my lust and my pride going hand in hand
And if I must, then I might forget how to plan; what does it matter in the end, man

But sometimes, when everything goes right
I realize something else could be more my type
Then I
Then I look at both sides and decide
That I'm better off living in a lie
I just need the time to get it squared off
Hats off to the man who can take risks without getting scared off
I don't know what should be mine
Everything changes once I get the green light