Stay

I've seen a lot of cold nights since you left this house
Daddy went ahead and found another spouse
Half the time I don't know what I'm 'bout
Confused as fuck but I take the expressive route ah
Shit is sour like expired beer stout ah
Writing this is how I let my tears out nah
I won't cry yo... I've gotta work with what I'm given
If I let it beat me... that's a self made restriction
I miss the way you laugh... miss the way you look
As you tell me 'bout certain phrases in the book
That you're reading... I hope you know that I love you
I'm grown now... won't ever let a man touch you like dad did
I grew up a sad kid at school I was in the background life ad-libs
Being cool made it seem like the fam was mad rich
If it didn't... losing would make me damn sick
Life would be different if things never changed
Maybe I'd be rude very selfish and deranged
Nonreligious and suspicious speeding down a drain
Dishing plates of nothing but pure pain
But I understand why it happened
Everyday was a mission nights were a challenge
You were losing balance given stolen cameras
And even though you left mom I wish you could... stay

This way you'd never go away
And even though the sun don't shine the sun don't shine
If I've still got you then ima be fine
Even though the sun don't shine the sun don't shine
Ain't nothing gonna take you away

Please forgive me I have to be blunt your hearts open
I'm hoping that you're joking
Mine's closing my minds frozen
That's what she said to me... the break up was unspoken
It was texted to me I was cut real deep
She's so reckless to me I still love her b
I still want to see that life that you owe me
The life that you told me you'd give to me
I remember when you were still a bitch to me
Memories of how love was a gift to me
When every thought of you was pure bliss to me
But now its different I'm chilled though I stress this not
It's a mission for real yo I'm wrecked in spots
That I didn't even know were a part of my figure
Maybe its because I'm so odd and I differ
From other people so its hard to be in a
Relationship... therefore it sinks
But I stay afloat what a sight to see
I won't lie really thought you were my wife to be
And I still do damn this isn't right to me
Letting go is a big thing
Don't be mad this is only what a prince thinks
Tryna be a king... tryna find a queen
And even though we'll never be... I wish I could stay

Let it run
This way I'd never go away I'd stay
And even though the sun don't shine the sun don't shine
I think ima be cool if you're not by my side
Even when the sun did shine the sun did shine
It's the little things that took you away